Can't / Don't want to make friends?

Courtier wrote:Do you have one of those insulin pumps attached to you? They're cool

I heard from a friend that when you're in need of an insulin shot you diabetic girls.. taste sweet, like sugar. Is that true? Another way to test your blood sugar in a pinch

I did roughly 10 years ago, but the excessive scarring and lack of freedom I felt weren't worth it for me. Definitely better control with it, but it isn't for me.

It isn't true for myself. I find my blood tastes very metallic, but it could be true for others. I'm definitely not going to go around finding diabetics to taste their blood. haha

(Oh and best to be careful with a diabetic who doesn't have their blood sugar under control. More prone to yeast infections. )

In my own experiences over the years, friendships happen in one of two ways:

1. You and another person go through some sort of harrowing journey or experience together, and some sort of weird bonding results from it.

2. You offer something to someone that they're not getting from others, and so they latch onto you as a result. This could be an emotional need or something like weed.

So Idunno I guess you could get a job somewhere that is super stressful, trauma bond with your equally miserable coworkers, pick out a sad one and give them some weed.

i'm studying at a uni n i have no friends. they're aquanitancs but not friends. i tried to befriend but i couldnt, it got super awkward.
whenever there's a social situation involving the class, i am giving fake laughter, standing in some corner, waiting for time to pass, hoping for heavy rains to shower on us and spoil the party so we can all go to our respective hostel.

i have 3 online friends n that's it. i dont want anymore now. im content with them.

I relate to this so much.
I don’t have any friends really. I have some but I don’t consider them real friends.
Also, when I’m in a relationship, sometimes I feel like I don’t even want any friends.
Sometimes I crave them. It’s like I desperately want them and completely don’t at the same time.
I can be a very social person but my issues usually stop me from making real connections with people.

I have insane trust issues. I also find most people really annoy me. I tend to feel rejected incredibly easily and at the first sign of rejection cut people off.
I idealise people I guess. Then when they don’t meet my ridiculously high expectations I feel really hurt and like I was stupid to like them so much.
I also feel like this is affected by my ever changing personality though. It’s hard to make friends when you feel like different people constantly. I think some people meet me in one mood and then meet me in the other and get totally confused cause I’m so different.

I really know what you mean when you say you don’t want to make friends. I think deep down I probably do I just have that little faith in people or true friendships anymore that I have gone cold in that area. I expect everyone to let me down so I don’t want to.
I rarely meet anyone I truly feel I connect with in a friendship way. It’s sad really. The only people I feel I connect with are potential romantic and/or sexual partners. It’s been that way for years.
There’s this total disconnect with friendships. I don’t think I know how to have a friendship anymore.
But many friendships completely let me down. I had friends who I was really close to for years and they all abandoned me in some horrible way. People I thought I’d be friends with until I was old. It really hurt me and scarred me I think. Hence why I don’t really trust friends now. I can’t take that kind of pain again. It made my perception of friendships be, you can have a really strong bond with someone for years and then it can just go, the friend no longer cares about you, disrespects you, even physically attacks you. So they never really cared. All the good times you shared weren’t real.
Sorry I’ve waffled on.

I've gone through ups and downs, but some time ago decided I shouldn't have friends anymore. I know that I need friends, but at the same time having people close is so distressing that I can't cope with it.

Superficial relationships, banter and small talk with colleagues etc., no problem. But whenever it gets any close/personal, it's too much for me. I've tried to fight it and dive into it anyway, but in the end it was always too much, no matter how little it was. So I decided to stop trying.

Same with romantic relationships, the one f*cked up relationship I had was far too much for me to stomach. I've tried many times, but eventually gave up on this too.

Isolation feels really $#%^, but sadly not as $#%^ as the alternative.