Hello all!
I've "recently" been diagnosed with BPD (it as been 3 months now) and i feel like it helps me understand the way i think and act a lot better. For the first time in my life, i dont feel like im "weird" ! Or at least not as much as before...
But there is something that keeps me awake at night these days ; is it possible that the BPD is making me "fall in love" with other people very easily? EVEN if im already in a relationship ?
Dont get me wrong, i do not cheat on my partner ! But now that im diagnosed i can clearly see a patern in all my love life. I usually fall HARD in love with someone and with time i get kind of "bored". I know it seams very mean and rude but its something i cannot control. And right now im in a very healthy realtionship with a guy that helps me everyday ! It has been 3 years, a miracle for me.
But ive started a new job, and there is this one guy... I wouldnt say i've fallen already, but i'm already attracted to him. I do not wish to end my relationship because im pretty sure all those feeling will pass and all.. But i feel very conflicted none the least.
So, long story short : is it possible this is because of the BPD?
Also, i dont know if it is important or not but i am asexual. So when this happen it is very emontions based.
(I am very sorry if my sentences feel a bit weird, english is not my native language !)