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As people with BPD we are more likely to seek out excitement and pleasure, so I'm curious what strange, wild, or weird things other people with BPD get up to. Share your stories and secrets with me and I'll share mine!

I used to be much more impulsive and reckless. I've calmed down a lot lately, which is a good thing. I got myself into trouble before and did a lot of other things I could have gotten in trouble for, but thankfully, didn't. Other times I would impulsively quit jobs and fly to distant parts of the world with no plan. I just felt very restless at all times, like my insides itched and I just had to get up and do something, the more dangerous and reckless, the better. I feel lucky I'm alive and things worked out relatively ok despite it all. I'd rather not go into detail about things I've done.

justagirl00 wrote:I used to be much more impulsive and reckless. I've calmed down a lot lately, which is a good thing. I got myself into trouble before and did a lot of other things I could have gotten in trouble for, but thankfully, didn't. Other times I would impulsively quit jobs and fly to distant parts of the world with no plan. I just felt very restless at all times, like my insides itched and I just had to get up and do something, the more dangerous and reckless, the better. I feel lucky I'm alive and things worked out relatively ok despite it all. I'd rather not go into detail about things I've done.

Interesting. I find that I'm less impulsive and reckless than I am hedonistic and curious. I suppose that's why the ICD breaks down Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder into Impulsive and Borderline types.

And I didn't mean to trigger anything. I see both positives and negatives in the personality traits that tend to come along with BPD and also don't have a lot of shame in regards to things I've done, good and bad, so I may have a slightly different perspective than the average person.

I think the most I've done was meet up with strangers from the internet and buying video games or ordered food when I didn't exactly have the money to afford it..

Foucault_me_slowly wrote:
Interesting. I find that I'm less impulsive and reckless than I am hedonistic and curious. I suppose that's why the ICD breaks down Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder into Impulsive and Borderline types.

And I didn't mean to trigger anything. I see both positives and negatives in the personality traits that tend to come along with BPD and also don't have a lot of shame in regards to things I've done, good and bad, so I may have a slightly different perspective than the average person.

Oh no worries...didn't trigger me

I do relate to the Impulsive type of borderline more, now that you mention it.

Although I'm not anti-hedonism. I just had some other reasons I didn't want to go into detail at this time.

Everyone is so shy!

My strange secret is that I have a side job as a sugar baby. It definitely relates to my BPD. I love the thrill of being able to earn $500 in an hour and finding out what other people enjoy. I've been a people pleaser all of my life. It's also a huge ego boost for someone who always felt fat and weird. I get to put my BPD passion and intensity to good use. I'm lucky that my bf knows and is completely ok with it as long as I'm safe but I do wonder whether it will eventually get out of control.

@Foucault_me_slowly

Everyone is so shy!

ha ha no not shy really just been busy reading through busy busy forum the last few days and only just seen this naughty me

Hmm, mine have mostly been of a sexual nature :p
not many one nighter's though i have had a few i guess, if i liked i guy i would have him, i was very confident when i was younger only sexually, my Rage and other behaviors mostly was with my mother as she was very controlling Narc ..thanks to my upbringing sex is love to me

And this is probly why i flipped when my ex withheld sex from me as punishment