Should I be concerned?

I have been battling with BPD for a long time and sustaining myself fairly well, having been off meds and therapy for 4 years I was under the impression I could handle this by myself, but things have started to go downhill.

My BPD symptoms are starting to worsen again and I'm losing control of my behaviour, which is in turn affecting my daily life negatively. I'm not sure what I should do because I am at a crucial point in schooling where I can't just go back to my home to rest and figure things out.

The only thing I can think to do is to bear with the stress of school until the semester ends in April and then seek help...

Am I going about this wrong? If someone could give some suggestions it would be greatly appreciated!

The only thing I can think to do is to bear with the stress of school until the semester ends in April and then seek help...

Does your school have any therapy options? I know mine has free psychotherapy as long as you are enrolled. If you are at a point where you feel like things are stacking up it's important to seek help. It's great that you're reaching out here! What is it you are struggling with specifically? School pressures, deadlines, finances, relationships? All of the above? Please share. Please don't try to bear it alone. We are here to help.

Thanks for your reply! @abandonment_junkie

They do actually, though I have been there before and the councillor I talked too was less than qualified to help me, not really understanding what BPD was even. I believe it would be a good idea to go there just to maybe calm me down a bit thanks for that!

But I'm not exactly sure what I am struggling with, not much has really changed in my life. I am planning on applying for a masters program next year but I'm not sure if that is causing me any extra stress.

I have just been acting erratically and my emotional and social life are being destroyed because of it. I am acting out more and cannot calm my emotions like I used to be able to, and I can tell its starting to affect my relationships. This is scaring my friends and they don't know what to do so they are kind of backing away from me.

I have also has some problem recently which I have not had in a long time with doing drugs excessively. Unfortunately this caused me to be hospitalized a few weekends ago because of an alcohol overdose, which I think has just added to the emotional instability.

I have depersonalization and that has also been acting up making it harder for me to study and has increased my anxiety.

Sorry for kind of unloading... I'm just really not sure why this is all happening now, I have been getting progressively worse and I don't know if this is just a really low point for me, and that I might be able to regain composure by giving it some time.

Hi there. From personal bad experiences I really recommend you visit a doctor and talk to them about this, maybe get them to refer you to someone who specialises in mental illness. I held off seeing someone about my BPD when it got bad for so long which eventually led to *TW* an overdose shortly followed by a nervous breakdown. In my opinion and with no offence, I think leaving it when things are bad is a dangerous decision. I know school is important and you want to meet deadlines etc. but I'd definitely consider prioritising your own wellbeing.

Mental health > education. I agree with Worryrock. see if your GP can refer you to a professional.