by neptunerising » Fri Dec 19, 2014 6:46 am
I wanted to write "Of course!" Depression is the part of BPD that I actually hate the most..actually it is the distorted image I have of others and myself from time to time..
Your boyfriend said you slept a lot but I am glad that you wrote "My boyfriend" because it means he is still there even though he's noticing your sleeping patterns and what not..I'm not sure what you are into and you probably have a lack of will to do anything and find nothing fun during these times...So what I was going to suggest was doing something you like..
Something that really helps me, is watching movies I can relate to. This could be a trigger for some but you did say you weren't having any suicidal thoughts. I watch this movie called After Jimmy on Lifetime and it works wonders. I think acting along with movies that reflect your current mood is very therapeutic but I'm no doctor so what do I know? I just know it helps for the time being to let some of the emptiness out or to get out frustrations.
"Bring me my family.. Hurry! ..Bring me my family....It's all over, all over.. We've been so terribly betrayed.. Come to the pavilion. Hurry, my children.. I love you, I love you.. Let's gather for one final moment together.. We've been so terribly betrayed."