Isolation

Wow, I am feeling extremely crappy lately. I've never really been big on hanging out with people for the past few years and I'm content with that or so I thought. Every time I hang out with my friends, I am bored and feel I've wasted my time and/or money. I don't find many of my friends interesting. I've joined meetup.com to find more like-minded people but haven't gone to a single event. I feel too miserable and negative to go and meet new people. So, I feel like i'm stuck in a catch-22. I want to meet new people but at the same time, I don't.

I just feel angry at the whole world lately. Everyone except animals. I have an undying love for them. But unfortunately, animals can only do so much. I know I need people. I feel like most human beings do. I have my mom but being 26 yrs old, it can get very annoying hanging around her all the time. Its my mom for crying out loud.

I've also been wanting to find more hobbies and just got into reading lately. But, the kind of books I'm interested in lately, I am not so sure are good for me. I started reading "Coumbine" and its really interesting. I was a psychology major in school so this kind of stuff is intriguing to me... why people do what they do so to speak. But, I also think its not really good for me. Not that I have any desires or thoughts to kill others. But its just a very detailed book about what the killers were planning and thinking and its like a demon was inside them. pretty creepy.

i dont know how to get out of this whole I am in. I am really sad and alone. And its like I want to be there but I definitely dont either.

Maybe try reading other psychology books? I've found "games peoplr play" by Eric berne to be a fasxinating book. Try to read things that are interesting but which are learning for the better. Perhaps get a book about DBT.

Maybe meet up with one or two friends more often? Just to see how it goes.

Hi-I'm new here. This is my first post on this entire site. I, too, tend to isolate. Some people are just naturally introverted. But I personally have Boderline personality disorder and bipolar disorder. I've been on meds for years. And I still isolate. Not to make assumption,s but do you have BPD? People with this disorder have a history of unstable relationships and sometimes that will certainly leave a bad taste in your mouth as far as wanting to meet others. I suffer from bad paranoia that stems from my BPD-and paranoids sometimes isolate themselves. Isolation is common feature of paranoia-whether it stems from BPD or if it's classic paranoia alone, or paranoid personality disorder.

If interacting with others in person is too much for you (And believe me-I'm like this too)! Do what your doing now: Take baby steps and stick to interacting with others on forums such as this. And again, don't beat yourself up. Some people are very withdrawn and shy and some people don't require a lot of human interaction. This can be an advantage if you have a hobby or something. Or throw yourself into working if your not a people person. Hope this helps..