Anger

Does anyone here feel as if they are constantly angry? I have a whole lot of anger and frustration inside me, so much so that my happy moods are few and far between. I'm irritable all day, everyday. I have no patience. I cant handle multiple irritants. Ex: If my dog has an accident on my floor then I spill a drink all over while someone is talking to me I will probably start screaming and lose it. Although these things happen daily I do have times when I am happier and these are holidays, birthdays, when I am with friends, when I drink alcohol, when I have money to spend. I drink about once a week and only spend money when I actually can. I always make sure my bills are paid. I refuse to give in to my impulses because then I'd feel even worse about myself than I already do. I HATE being this way but I do not know what to do. I have an appointment with a psychiatrist Sept. 3rd which I am greatly looking forward to since I have never met with one before. I just wanted to know if this was an issue for others..

yes i can be irritable over the littlest things for days. its like it builds and builds up. Lately its more irritable than feeling good. Im not even sure what happiness is anymore.

bittersweetx3 wrote:I have a whole lot of anger and frustration inside me, so much so that my happy moods are few and far between. I'm irritable all day, everyday. I have no patience. I cant handle multiple irritants.

I can relate to that. Tiny little things can irritate me. Once multiple tiny little things build up in a short period of time, it becomes incredible anger and frustration. Sometimes the person that is unfortunate enough to be the straw that broke the camels back ends up amazed that such a tiny little thing could send me into such an out of proportion rage.

I think part of the problem is that I often don't notice the anger or irritation until it is at breaking point. A lot of the therapies around that might help with BPD are about noticing your emotions more so that you don't get to breaking point before using some sort of technique/skill to reduce the intensity of it.

I also find though that anger is incredibly motivating for me. I can power on for days fueled purely by anger. But then it fizzles out and all I'm left with is sadness and emptiness. There's probably a bit of an energy burn out there too which leaves me feeling really low and flat. Like right now.

Hopefully the psychiatrist can recommend some medication and/or therapy to help.

No. I'm not angry. I used to be though, years ago. Until I realized being angry to others was actually being angry to myself and projecting. That really can build up and then explode.
Now I can be angry for a little while, or it's more like just irritation.

youneverreallyknow wrote:I can power on for days fueled purely by anger.

Certain feelings are really fueling, but I prefer positive ones.

WendyTorrance wrote:Certain feelings are really fueling, but I prefer positive ones.

I'd prefer positive ones too. I wasn't trying to say it's a good thing to be fueled by anger. The opposite really. Because once it passes, you are just left with sadness. Well, that's what it feels like for me anyway.

youneverreallyknow wrote:I'd prefer positive ones too. I wasn't trying to say it's a good thing to be fueled by anger.

Didn't meant to judge, I have a blunt way of expressing things
And yeah, I'm often fueled by certain repressed emotion. It's not positive, but not exactly negative either.

thebetterhalf wrote:yes i can be irritable over the littlest things for days. its like it builds and builds up. Lately its more irritable than feeling good. Im not even sure what happiness is anymore.

Yep, I feel the same way

I'm getting angrier and angrier each day. It's getting to the point where if I did the math, I think I'd find that I'm now angry the majority of the time.

What makes my anger even worse is the fact that nobody is doing anything about the things I'm getting angry about; things that are very, very objectively wrong and shouldn't be happening/being said.

Instead of fixing the real problems, people would rather take their minds off of it by diverting their attention to my anger and criticizing it.

I'm not saying to fix these problems for me. I'm saying fix them BECAUSE THEY'RE PROBLEMS. It's the principle - the big picture - that I'm looking at.

People should right the wrong. I thought doing so made us different from all the other animals on the planet... but I guess I was WRONG. So now I'm gonna do that thing you're SUPPOSE to do when you're WRONG; I'm gonna CORRECT myself. Truth is: there is just as much scum among the human race as there is... as there is humans, actually.

So there.

Thank you for all the replies. I'm glad I can relate to others because in my personal life I know that no one understands me completely. You have to live it to really get it. It's nice to know I'm not alone. I have a therapy appointment tomorrow and I'm sure we will be discussing some better ways to deal with it.

I actually avoided a outburst the other day which gives me some hope. What I did was I took some deep breaths to try to clear my thoughts then I talked about it after I had slowed my heart rate down. It took me a while and wasn't easy but it's still a small triumph. I have to take myself away and be alone for a few minutes but I haven't been able to do it since.

Havoctoria I feel the same way. I can't let it go if no one tries to right their actions. I am still trying to come to terms with the fact that some people just don't give a sh*t, are sh*t and will always be.

I do have some sad news though, the next available appointment to get into a psychiatrist isn't until Jan. 15, 2015. I'm depressed enough already. I suppose I will make the most of the time with my therapist that I can until then. I'm praying I can get in sooner some how. My personal care physician prescribed me Trazodone on Monday but so far I have just used it for sleep at night. There isn't much more they will do since I have tried almost every type of anti depressant and anxiety drug on the market. They absolutely refuse to put any kind of mood stabilizer on the table, my psychiatrist has to do that.

I'm exactly the same, my anger is a real problem for me. I do a lot of the time feel as though I spend about 80 -90 % of my time just being angry and in a state of severe frustration. And I hate it! But it's good to know I'm not the only one!