Frustrated at being misunderstood everyday, all day

I recently posted a thread on this forum that almost everyone who read it misunderstood, and I got ostracized for it. My inability to delete the post ensured my continued ostracism, even from fellow borderlines (I would not even consider the opinions of nons).

Everyday, I get ostracized at work, at the gym, in my apartment complex, at grocery stores, at gas stations, at the beach, in my Meetup groups, and in my own motherf**king family.

Two months ago, a piece of lead 0.45 inches in diameter that was supposed to end my suffering instead went through one of my lungs, and ended up costing me about $10,000 in medical expenses, not to mention everything else that you can (but should not have to) imagine.

I come here thinking ... maybe, given all the crap I've been through (and I know I'm not the only one - everyone here has been through crap), I can be cut some slack, but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

Maybe I should just shut up, then. Perhaps suspend myself from something that can hold 190 lbs.

Sorry you're feeling that way. I don't know what thread caused this cause I don't come in the BPD forum much (funny bc that's my dx) but umm, I'm not judging you! So at the very least, there's always someone else around who has no clue what's going on and doesn't think anything bad about you.

It's hard though, I think, when you have a support forum full of pwBPD. I mean just think about it. That's like... dominoes....

It's hard being so emotionally raw but the good news is that you will feel better, just give yourself time! Take some deep breaths and do something nice for yourself. People love you, it's just hard to feel sometimes. Hugs!

vertices wrote:Sorry you're feeling that way. I don't know what thread caused this cause I don't come in the BPD forum much (funny bc that's my dx) but umm, I'm not judging you! So at the very least, there's always someone else around who has no clue what's going on and doesn't think anything bad about you.

It's hard though, I think, when you have a support forum full of pwBPD. I mean just think about it. That's like... dominoes....

Hi, thanks for your support. Today, it means a lot to me.

The post I was referring to is titled "Ever compare BPD to demonic possession".

Who knows - once you read the post, you might not want to support me anymore But that's ok, I'm used to it.

Thanks again !

I read that and got what you meant. We act out when we don't want to, it's not what is in our hearts but something takes over and we can lose control. I get it!

Itsanewday_11 wrote:I read that and got what you meant. We act out when we don't want to, it's not what is in our hearts but something takes over and we can lose control. I get it!

Thanks, that's exactly what I was intending to say, but I think I might have not worded my subject line properly. I just didn't think it was bad or imposing in any way. In fact, my subject line was a QUESTION, not a STATEMENT !!!

Anyway, thanks again, for your support Hugs back at you.

Itsanewday_11 wrote:It's hard being so emotionally raw but the good news is that you will feel better, just give yourself time! Take some deep breaths and do something nice for yourself. People love you, it's just hard to feel sometimes. Hugs!

Those are very sweet words. Thank you so much

I feel like this too. It's hard being disordered, and people are so quick to judge and label you. They don't understand what you go through, and the life you have lived.


I did an art project the other day, and it made me feel a whole lot better. I made a collage to represent who I am. I taped pictures of things that I like, images, preferences, what represents my style, words cut out of magazines that I relate to. Just everything that I am, appreciate or would be if I could, without being judged. I took a pic of that and posted it on my social media. A non verbal way to communicate who I am since I lack the right words to explain it. And lack understanding empathetic people in my life as well. Just thought I'd share this in case it might help you

I briefly read the topic you were talking about, and didn't see anything triggering there.
People take things too personally, but you don't have to be one of them.

lilodian4ever wrote:Two months ago, a piece of lead 0.45 inches in diameter that was supposed to end my suffering instead went through one of my lungs, and ended up costing me about $10,000 in medical expenses, not to mention everything else that you can (but should not have to) imagine.

Omg! I hope you are ok.

lilodian4ever wrote:

vertices wrote:Sorry you're feeling that way. I don't know what thread caused this cause I don't come in the BPD forum much (funny bc that's my dx) but umm, I'm not judging you! So at the very least, there's always someone else around who has no clue what's going on and doesn't think anything bad about you.

It's hard though, I think, when you have a support forum full of pwBPD. I mean just think about it. That's like... dominoes....

Hi, thanks for your support. Today, it means a lot to me.

The post I was referring to is titled "Ever compare BPD to demonic possession".

Who knows - once you read the post, you might not want to support me anymore But that's ok, I'm used to it.

Thanks again !

Oh, well I don't think that's that weird. my bf actually made that comparison after he experienced breakdowns+splitting, he said now he gets why people believe in possession.

Idk, for me I'm just not introverted enough to take everything that personally... and I guess I don't really identify with my dx