Unsure what to do about ex

Hello everyone,

I don't quite know why I'm going to post this, perhaps because I'd appreciate your thoughts regarding what I'm about to post.

I'm 22 and still have feelings for my ex - who happens to be my first love. We've been broke up for almost a year now and contact between the two of us has been very on-and-off. She's younger than me and grew up in foster care, going from one foster placement to the next. She told me a lot of bad things happened to her, including different forms of abuse. We broke up last year because of an argument. Personally I don't think it was worthy of splitting up over but evidently she did. Since the end of our relationship she's had 2 boyfriends that I know of and probably other sexual encounters with other males. She only ever seems to want to meet up if I have money or something of interest to her. For instance, yesterday I went to meet her at my local park. We spoke about general stuff and eventually she confided in me that she was feeling depressed. She spoke of having thoughts about death, having suicidal feelings and could barely look me in the eye. I tried to comfort her as best I could but she seemed to be so consumed in herself that little I said got through. She takes drugs, hangs around with people who aren't particularly good for her, commits crimes and gets into fights. I'm no psychiatrist but I was with her quite a while and picked up on a lot about her. Her paranoid schizophrenic father is dead, she feels abandoned due to her family putting her into care and does destructive things such as drugs I'm guessing in an attempt to fill the void in her. Her moods were more unstable than anyone I've ever known so I'm wondering if she has BPD. I can't be sure but I have this gut feeling she is. She's told me she still loves me and that the boyfriend she's with at the moment isn't someone she feels any love for. I just don't know what to do. She spoke about the potential for us getting back together in the future but I can't imagine that anymore. Sometimes I don't hear from her for days or weeks on end and then she pours her heart out to me. It's all so very confusing. What do you think I should do?

Thanks in advance.

What you should do is distance yourself from her and not be caught up in her never ending drama's. Change your Phone numbers etc It's mental unhealthy to empathize in any thing that she does or says. Free yourself from her for good.

bad boy wrote:What you should do is distance yourself from her and not be caught up in her never ending drama's. Change your Phone numbers etc It's mental unhealthy to empathize in any thing that she does or says. Free yourself from her for good.

Thank you for taking the time to reply, bad boy. I know you're right, it's just about putting what I know into practice. Unfortunately my mobile phone is on contract so I am unable to change my number as far as I'm aware, however I do have the ability to block her using apps on my phone. I live in the same town as her though and I'm sure she'd find a way of contacting me when she next wants something off me or when she realises that she'll never find someone like me ever again.