Yay! Attachment Issues!

I recently went to a club and ended up hooking up with a guy there. I felt on top of the ######6 world for a few days and then that feeling started to wear off. I've been super reactive and started tearing up in public today which NEVER happens to me.

My problem is I really want to go back and find someone else to make me feel like that again but I'm afraid I'll completely fall apart if I don't meet anyone who's interested this time. No one around me, not even my friends with BPD, seems to get why this is such a big deal for me. This is just the first time I've ever done something like this and I feel like it's kicked my attachment issues into top gear. Can anyone relate to this sort of thing?

I can very much relate. I recently went through something similar after talking to a guy for a few hours at a bar. I didn't even hook up with him, we just talked, yet it threw me into a life crisis...ridiculous

I don't have much great advice for you other than to honor your emotions, don't try to fight them, just be gentle with yourself while you're feeling this way...do something kind just for you, that doesn't rely on anyone else to make you feel good. I find meditation and physical activity particularly helpful for these kinds of situations. they just help clear your head a little bit. anyway, I totally sympathize with you and I hope you feel better very soon <3

Thank you for your response, bateman! I went to the gym today and that made me feel a little better. I've just been feeling so good and I don't want to crash again...

My attachment issues used to push me into promiscuity for just the reason you listed. After being down for so long it was validating and uplifting. Even though you know it isnt love it makes you feel really good, its exciting. I did this for a long time. Dont feel guilty if you want to live this way for a while. After the torment I've gone through this year chasing love I feel like re-entering that kind of world myself. Just be safe and have fun but realize what you are doing and why.