anyone else do this?

my insomnia is getting the best of me...because of THIS^^ some jerkface asked me if it was guilt which is now triggering me because what if it is?

More than I would care to admit. I try to stop it by thinking about all of my accomplishments but sometimes that train of thought becomes a runaway train.

Almost nightly.

We should have a late night insomniac PF movie night! We have to all be watching the same thing and have snacks, popcorn and soda around us! As well as our cell phones!

And does this guilt you may be experiencing need to be discussed.... Hugs woman!

yup do it all the time.

I tend to do this too. Its VERY hard at night cause everyones asleep and you're alone. And you're supposed to be trying to fall asleep but now that lights are off, distractions are all gone, it gives us all the time in the world to really THINK.

night time is hard. very hard.

not with overthinking but...
i've been ill and you really can't tell when i'm ill
i know i sould rest but it's really hard for me
ther's a reason i do a lot of sports and phyisical work


do you take the time to relax
try to make a ritual b4 bed
alsways the same things in the same order
can be mentaly relaxing

try writing down your conserns to get it out
meditation
running a kata,tao
running
yoga
pray

I used to do this. I do this less now, as in i cry less but the feeling of regret still floats in my head.

Advice: how do you guys spend your days? i take the bpd as a battle. at night i cry and lose, so during day(when i'm not crying), i do stuff that prepare me for night, that strenghten me. like i exercise, read, write, listen to music, spend time on this forum, the off topic, just for fun forum.

night is like war, day is preparation time.

i still regret not coming to this forum before, but i dont cry as much. i mean with workout, read, proper food, and this forum, at night even if i want to cry and bask in self pity, my body refuses to let the tears come out. perhaps my body's way of rewarding me after all the fruits i let it have.

Currently.


Sigh.

Though it's not so dramatic most of the time. I just can't stop thinking... about everything! Past, present, future. Sometimes I lay awake at night and try to relive my life, without all the mistakes. I want to wake up and start over.

Then there's the present. The overwhelming present. Where everything balances on a knife edge. I can't block this feeling out, that I'm about to lose everything.

And finally, the uncertain future... and how how how am I going to make it there?? It surely does keep me awake at night.

I think all BPD's here can relate to this. Mine use to be constant throughout the day, night and when trying to sleep. I have found mood stabilizers to have made a massive difference to this sort of thinking. Good luck

letha wrote:Currently.


Sigh.

Though it's not so dramatic most of the time. I just can't stop thinking... about everything! Past, present, future. Sometimes I lay awake at night and try to relive my life, without all the mistakes. I want to wake up and start over.

Then there's the present. The overwhelming present. Where everything balances on a knife edge. I can't block this feeling out, that I'm about to lose everything.

And finally, the uncertain future... and how how how am I going to make it there?? It surely does keep me awake at night.

Couldn't have described this better if I tried. 100% how I feel.