Assistance Please

The receptionist asked me to come up and take over the phones while she does files. One person called for my second boss came up and the receptionist said “You don’t have to cover the phones if you don’t want to.” I then asked if she thought that I had “attitude” and she didn’t really answer that but body language would indicate that that is whereabouts she was thinking wise.

She said “Don’t touch anything” but I don’t know. Now she’s got that weird attitude thing going.

And the other cw is schizoaffective. She’s always paranoid that I am doing something or has a motive.

I have done the following anomalous behavior from past two years to now:

-I got territorial once over map sales

--I complained once about my daughter on the “Link” conversation media to mi cw and the mi cw was trying to sign in and the mi cw thought that I was sabotaging her and told the the big boss

--I was a tad bit nosy and brought food and sometimes accidentally lost stuff on receptionists desk

--Sometimes I sound stressed on the phone

-I accidentally ate the second bosses cheese soup and her ravioli.

--For the Fair—my division went--- I forgot to get the money card and had to go back to get money for lunch

--I don’t lock the office. The Director says that this is okay because there are Security Guards but the receptionist wants it locked all of the time. I know about authority over riding but she does have a point.

--Quietly I got mad because only two people really congratulated me about my daughter


Sometimes, the receptionist can be fun loving and gentle. Sometimes she is friendly. She was very proud of my daughter . Sometimes, she is supportive. Other times she has this horrid attitude. Sometimes she and the mi cw get weird themselves and get like to chew on me.

I am a mess and probably should have been fired by now but I have to have this job and I have had mercy shown to me several times.

It makes me mad that I always open up to the cw and and the receptionist and it also makes me mad that I am forced to participate in office social crap when I want to shut myself off and away from getting hurt.

This is like what folks might call a mind-messing*”

Sometimes, I think that this is about race.



Of course, you could say that I make more of hard time for myself. I don’t’ know. I probably do feel too sorry for myself. Most likely you will think that I am over analyzing.

Well, that is it.

From the beginning, the receptionist has always held that I like to get reactions from people—that she takes no guff and she expects the rules to be followed. I pretty much never know what to expect.

I am childish and self centered but I always mean well. I don't appreciate being treated badly.

HELP.















In moving forward--it is within persistance with perserverence that we grow, we move on and we conquer

lol....we are all prolly childish and self-centered but mean well Well, I am childish anyways.....

-- Thu Oct 24, 2013 5:38 pm --

Ps.- how do you accidentally eat someones cheese soup and ravioli??