my dog died this week

It was the most horrifying moment of my life. I watched it happen; she was hit by a car, twice. By someone who had to be as cruel as to shrug and laugh after my baby's blood spattered everywhere while I stood by screaming for them to go around her. He had his window down, and even people who did not understood what I was saying. He was just cruel, so so so cruel. She could not be saved.

I cannot get the image out of my head. It replays over and over in my head.

My thoughts are becoming obsessive, I cried yesterday because I wanted so badly to dig her up from out of the ground and hug her once more. I can hardly get up in the morning because she would always leave me some present, like a dog bone, in my bed for me to find when I wake up. Or she would lick my face until I got out of bed. When I take my other dog out for a walk, he stares at the road the whole time and whimpers. I am becoming paranoid about all of my other family members. When I don't know where my parents are, I panic. The other day, I went through a drive thru of some sort and when they forget something I'd ordered, my mother had to go inside to retrieve it. I sobbed in the car the whole time because I could not see her through the windows, and she was gone for nine minutes.

I guess I want to know if anyone can relate or have any advice. It's okay if you can't or don't, it helps to just talk about it. Thank you if you read any of this.

That's awful. Some people aren't even kind of careful when driving. I was out walking one day and someone hit a squirrel right next to me. It traumatized me. The poor thing was doing his best to try and avoid the speeding jerk but couldn't figure out which way to go. I love animals. I love them more than I do people so I can't stand seeing that stuff

Also, when I was a teenager I accidentally stepped on one of our kittens and killed it. It was on the stairs going down to my room in the basement and afterwards I was so traumatized by that that I wouldn't go home. I would do ANYTHING to keep from going back to the house and I couldn't stop thinking about it....it kept replaying in my head and I couldn't shut it off. It was the most terrible thing ever.

If there is a way to find out who did it, then I would file a police report and possibly press charges.

I am very, very sorry that this happened to you. I have a friend who has three dogs and when one died of heart problems, it hit her hard.

I'm SO sorry. Big hug to you!!!!

Awww. That's so horrible.

Take this time to grieve.

I'm sorry that happened to you. some people are so cruel. I held my baby in my arms as she took her last breath when we had to put her to sleep, and my other one died from cancer. ive got one more. hes got cancer too. if you need to talk, ill pm with you.

Thank you everyone for all the encouragement. <3

I feel so sorry for those who have witnessed or undergone similar things. It truly was horrific, by far the most horrifying moment of my life at least. I keep thinking about whether or not there were things I could have done, and I was so focused on saving her that I did not take the license plate number of the man that ran over her head while I begged for him to go around her - which, by the way, the vet said was the cause of her death.

I think I would feel better if I had gotten to say a proper goodbye to her. My mom took her immediately to the vet while I stayed at home with my other dogs. But the last time I saw her, even with all of the trauma she had undergone, she was being the sweetest girl ever and wagged her tail. So I believe she went in peace, if such a thing is possible.

I am making a cross for her grave today. We set out bricks with a lace tablecloth over them, then I'll be setting the cross with her name and birth date on it right above where she sleeps. She actually dug the hole herself - right on top of a "dirt mountain" she loved to play and dig on. I hope she would like everything I am doing to try to honor her now.

Thank you again for all of the advice and love. You guys gave me comfort in knowing I am not alone. If there is anything I can do for any of you, I am just a PM away.

I'm so sorry that you had to watch this. It definitely must have been horrifying. I hope that you are able to take some time to care for yourself while you begin the healing process. It sounds like a good thing that you were able to prepare a nice spot for her to lay and rest in peace.

*sending positive thoughts your way*

Cheze2 wrote:I'm so sorry that you had to watch this. It definitely must have been horrifying. I hope that you are able to take some time to care for yourself while you begin the healing process. It sounds like a good thing that you were able to prepare a nice spot for her to lay and rest in peace.

*sending positive thoughts your way*

Thank you so much, that is the loveliest thing you could have said to me. <3