newbie

just been diagnosed..havin alot of problems.firstly,drink,ive tried my hardest to be teetotal sand cant,thought id b ok with couple drinks but cant,drink sets me off onn self harming/suicide attempts cos otherwise i feel too guilty.but only way to b around ppl is drinkin so catch 22 i need company to be happy but that needs drink,drink makes me harm,any suggestions of wat o do?

Welcome!
Alcohol sounds like it triggers some difficult things. Is there any way to either limit yourself or try to wean yourself off of it completely?
Why do you need alcohol to be around people?
Quitting can be helpful for some, but if it isn't for you, then as long as you can learn to moderate then it's ok to keep drinking, as long as it's safe for you to do so.

well i'm usually too anxious to be around people unless I am drinking. although i'm fine if im in my village or at least reasonably close,problem is I live in the middle of nowhere so there isn't much else to do but drink,also as you mentioned,my social circle consists mainly of people who are pretty fond of the drink (i'm irish,that's pretty much everyone lol) well anyway, due to the fact of my village being so small and me unable to travel too far there isn't much choice for a new social circle, also my girlfriend (also with BPD) just wont stop drinking at weekends and wont go hardly anywhere unless drink is involved so i'm pretty stuck. it's also messing up our relationship, because I cant drink around her or we end up arguing or she talks about mental health too much which triggers me. I know I cant cut down,i've really tried but once I get to 2 I think oh another will be fine,just 1 more,and we all know where that leads. I just wish I could find a way to be sociable without alcohol, I always end up on facebook at the end of the night asking people why they don't like me anymore yadda yadda,im a total pest. but I constantly need company and where i'm from it always involves drink