hi there. for this past couple of days, i've been trying to reach out to people, wanting to get help after all this isolation. but again and again, after everything i explained to them, i get the same old reaction, like 'only god can help you' or 'you need to calm yourself down when you feel panic' . i get frustrated with these answers because it doesnt work that way every time i get an episode or a panic attack. after everything that happened, i admit that i have lost faith in god. what i wanna ask to fellow bpders, does having faith in god helps you get through an episode or something?
maybe i should explain a little on how i lost my faith. i was a religious person, on and off, once in a while. but after the big melt down, i went full religious as the pain and the suicidal thoughts were so strong.i prayed all the time, with my heart completely in faith to god that he's gonna hear me and take the pain away. it went on for a while but i still heard nothing, my mental is tortured every single day. that was when i lost it..
so, i would like to hear an opinion or experience from any bpders here regarding faith and bpd.. thank you..