Feeling so hurt

I've been dating this lad about a week now (he's 22 and I'm 30. I know the 8 year age gap). I've been in his place and things got very steamy between us. I always try to please others and I can be just anybody they want me to be. Yesterday he didn't phone me and I texted him if he still wants to see me, his answer was "I'm very confused about you and I don't know".
I'm feeling rejected and really hurt. My need for love and reassurance is endless. I'm emotionally very needy.
I'm feeling really down and I just decided that I'm gonna get drunk tonight and go out to meet somebody else. I've had lots of men in the past and everytime when I get rejected or hurt by someone I just get drunk and talk all the guys in the bar. Or have one night stands with them. Sometimes I feel like the more pain I get the better I feel.
I have so much anger inside me, but I can't let it out so when the situation gets really bad I always end up cutting myself or sexually act out.

Is anyone here dealing with the same problem??

You sound really really depressed. As long as you accept that other people can only make you happy, you will be in this bottomless pit for the rest of your life, which may not be long by the rate you are going. The problem is if that other person changes for example and your not ready, then you will feel an awful amount of instability.

Leaning on people actual does more damage to yourself then you think. Dealing, fighting and battling with your CORE issues is the only way you will start to love YOURSELF. You need to start to find strategies to help you to start actually deal with your core issues. Nothing is impossible and a good positive mental attitude will help you survive in this world.

Change your habits and it will change your life. Simple!

Good Luck

I totaly agree with the last person. You have to be happy with yourself. Find stabbility in yourself and don't look to others for your happieness. You are the only one who can save yourself (aside from God the higher power of course).

When you begin to feel down look for someting to cheer you up that you can do on your own with out self injury or with out a man. Instead of cutting yourself maybe pain a picture. Instead of getting drunk and having a one night stand which could leave you pregnant and with std's try dancing in your livingroom with candles glowing. There are pleanty of activitys out there that can help you release your stress in a good way. I think I have tried them all.

I never cut myself but I used to pull out my hair and scratch myself until I would bleed. I had a whole lot of stress. My mom would drive me crazy, but now I do more positve things like write, walk, draw, and dance. I found these things lift me up instead of bring me down and I am much happier now. I also found when you have a support group of close friends that does wonders! And as for men just forget about them for a while until you are ready again, and you are sure they will love you the way you deserve to be loved. You can do it I believe in you!