Symptoms come in cycles?

Sometimes I feel like my BPD has gone into remission, and then it seems to come back full force.. It's like a have cycles that vary in length from a couple weeks to a couple months... Does anyone else experience this?

Recently I feel like I have been plunged back into the life of BPD. I haven't been this bad for over a year (although, I was on meds for about the past year, which I am now off)... My boyfriend recently moved 1 hour away so now I only see him once a week. We dont have a stable relationship and right before he moved I felt completely detached from him, as if I didnt care if he completely left my life. But now that he is gone I seem to care. Last night he told me he couldnt come up this week to see me. I got so upset that I cut for the first time in a year and a half.
Further, my friend was here to visit me for a week. Before she came I thought about how amazing she is and I couldnt wait. While she was here, she kept doing little things that triggered me to dislike her. On the last couple days of her stay she did something bigger (crossed a boundary, invaded my space..) and I completely switched on her and barely spoke to her for the rest of her stay. Once she left I felt terrible, but in the moment I just felt the hate so strongly I felt I couldnt control it...

Maybe it is coming back because of the switch to no meds a couple months ago.. But I feel like before I went on meds there was a cycling in my BPD too.
Does anyone experience a cycling of symptoms?

I agree, BPD for me seems to be cyclical. Mine is around 3 months on the last month, it goes in stages until I have a breakdown.... I can feel my behavior and attitude deteriorate and then I just go off the walls and want to bad silly things.
Then I'll get better, get my life in order and it'll begin to happen again. I feel like I'm stuck on a carousel ride that never stops.
Have you looked/thought about going on the meds again? sounds like they helped you alot.

I feel as though mine cycle as well. When younger and single my entire life was chaotic and unstable. Now I do much better. I try to keep tight control on my life and how my days go. Though I still have triggers that were unknown to me.

Having a child a few years ago ended up being a big one that set off a series of events. I'm still trying to get back to what is "normal" for me. I know that sounds bad but it is what it is.

Meds. I have never been consistent with. Once I start to feel even somewhat better I stop taking them. I have never liked the side effects.

I deal with the same thing. My symptoms come and go, I have my bad weeks and my good weeks, it's fairly unpredictable. I'm never sure which relationship is going to trigger certain reactions in me, some trigger a lot in me, and others have no effect whatsoever.. It's frustrating never knowing when the storm is going to hit again.

Helle wrote:I deal with the same thing. My symptoms come and go, I have my bad weeks and my good weeks, it's fairly unpredictable. I'm never sure which relationship is going to trigger certain reactions in me, some trigger a lot in me, and others have no effect whatsoever.. It's frustrating never knowing when the storm is going to hit again.

p.s. hi kitten!!!

my cycle:

life sucks for several months on end.

things go okay for anywhere from half a day to a week.

life sucks for several months on end.

life is okay for half a day to a week.

and so on..............

yep happens like this for me too.. though because im bipolar, i always thought it was because of that, but maybe not as I've noticed.. Its external "stressors" that seem to eff me up.. these stressors could be anything from a doctor being abrupt with me, to someone nagging me, to "my tight pants dont fit" I know... generally a few of these will happen and il just fuggin meltdown..I dont have any idea at all how to stop this.. like, I try and listen and sort through things but it all just seems too much..

I have similar probs with my meds, I wonder if that contributes much? hrm..

I notice my symptoms flare up when time comes closer to getting my period. I am usually pretty sane and might not have a full blown episode for awhile, but things build up and I will lose track of how stressed I am feeling. That is usually when the $#%^ hits the fan.

my symptoms are cyclical too, it's about every 3 months for me. i go from okay for a while and thinking i'm all better, to going downhill and being more irritable, to suicidally depressed and self harming, then crisis point, then back to kind of okay. it's exhausting. :/

at the moment i'm going downhill again, my meds aren't working anymore and i feel depressed. meh

thats bpd for you...

millie x

I think that's pretty much what bpd does, comes in waves and ebbs and flows.