my anxieties

i have anxiety everytime just before i have anxiety,but most time i cannot understand why i am anxious why i am trembling,because my mind is hiding it,but i feel it with my heart so much,itt is mostly bcoz of my fear of mental disease,sometimes when i feel depersonalization like i act in ways that i feel strange or not me,i also feel it, my anxieties were all about disease because i cannot get treatment i cannot rest most times i am thinking sometimes try to feel safe,sometimes think i must have patience.