Feeling sick

Every time I go to work through the city I just get sick to my stomach.

Seeing all the expensive cars, knowing I can't afford that.

Seeing attractive people drive them, seeing hot bimbos at the most expensive cars. The better the car, the hotter the chick. This makes me sick. I know how she got that car. But I'm jealous. Because I don't have the male equivalent of her beauty. I don't have that kind of money.

I feel like $#%^ in these people's eyes. I get extremely upset to a point where a wrong word said to me would trigger a violent action.

I'm so envious of people who are better looking than me and better off.

And then I come home to see that my hairline has receded even further.

I really don't see a point of living like this. I just want to slash my wrists, curl up and bleed somewhere in the corner. This $#%^ is too stressful for me.

If until end of this year I don't have good income which would allow me plastic surgery and luxuries of life, then I'm flopping my cars and saying goodbye to this ugly, ugly world.

It is better not to live at all than to live as an inferior being.

You have a girlfriend.

Try to imagine how it feels to have never even hugged a girl.

Yes, it's true.

Attractive females don't have to work a day in their life if they choose not to. They can live off of men. Use their body to get what ever they want. Whether it's prostitution or just finding a single male partner who will support her.
This is one of the many many reasons i want to be female.

But life isn't fair... When i was young I'd expect injustice to be righted and cared about, i thought everything could and should be fair. But it's not, nothing in life is fair. That's why some people are simply more attractive and hence have better lives. That's why some people are born into more wealth than others. That's why some people have greater intellectual potential than others.

You have a girlfriend.

Try to imagine how it feels to have never even hugged a girl.

Well at least someone cares about him.

See, you've got something other people don't. It would mean so much to me to have a girlfriend, don't take that for granted.

Killing yourself is wasteful. Is there nothing you care about? Nothing you care to see? Nothing you want to do? There is. There must be.

Anxious58 wrote:Killing yourself is wasteful. Is there nothing you care about? Nothing you care to see? Nothing you want to do? There is. There must be.

I disagree. Life as an extremely ugly person is worse than no life at all. The only reason I haven't killed myself yet is that there is a possibility that surgery will make me normal looking.

Nothing matters in life if you can't attract a partner. There is no way to make up for such a gaping hole in your life.

Hi,

I'm sorry your feeling this way. But I think your having a bit of a pitty party, I really don't mean to be so harsh but life isn't about material things and think its a little sad that you think like that. I used to be all woe is me because I don't have fancy things but since changeing the way I think about stuff and at the end of the day it is just stuff! I feel a bit more happy.

I uncerstand the whole partner thing because basically it is what every wants in life is it not? I know it's what I want, and from a female point of view all that material crap doesn't do it for me, I want a nice person who respects me not someone who wants me because they think I look good and I have nice things or what ever.

I think you need to take a look at your life, I see you have a girlfriend, you have a job, some people don't have any of those things, people are so much worse of than you, personally I think you have it good! You might be unhappy with some aspects of your life but you need to focus on the good because it's such a downwards spiral. I was once given a piece of advice from my mum, she said to me the secret to a good life is contentment, for a long time I thought to my self why should I be content when I want more but then I realised what I really want is to be happy and I don't need more.

Katrinas-x wrote:Hi,

I'm sorry your feeling this way. But I think your having a bit of a pitty party, I really don't mean to be so harsh but life isn't about material things and think its a little sad that you think like that. I used to be all woe is me because I don't have fancy things but since changeing the way I think about stuff and at the end of the day it is just stuff! I feel a bit more happy.

I uncerstand the whole partner thing because basically it is what every wants in life is it not? I know it's what I want, and from a female point of view all that material crap doesn't do it for me, I want a nice person who respects me not someone who wants me because they think I look good and I have nice things or what ever.

I think you need to take a look at your life, I see you have a girlfriend, you have a job, some people don't have any of those things, people are so much worse of than you, personally I think you have it good! You might be unhappy with some aspects of your life but you need to focus on the good because it's such a downwards spiral. I was once given a piece of advice from my mum, she said to me the secret to a good life is contentment, for a long time I thought to my self why should I be content when I want more but then I realised what I really want is to be happy and I don't need more.

BDD+depression+legitimate flaws+atheism will make even the people who have achieved the pinnacles of life not want to live. I know that I'm objectively better off than majority of people, but the pure fact that I'm not perfection makes me want to cease existing.

i completely can relate rottinginside,
but who knows?!
wonderful miracle would be waiting for you just in the next corner of life
don't give up your hope love you!

and twoface
i saw you, you look NICE

Rotting Inside wrote:

Katrinas-x wrote:Hi,

I'm sorry your feeling this way. But I think your having a bit of a pitty party, I really don't mean to be so harsh but life isn't about material things and think its a little sad that you think like that. I used to be all woe is me because I don't have fancy things but since changeing the way I think about stuff and at the end of the day it is just stuff! I feel a bit more happy.

I uncerstand the whole partner thing because basically it is what every wants in life is it not? I know it's what I want, and from a female point of view all that material crap doesn't do it for me, I want a nice person who respects me not someone who wants me because they think I look good and I have nice things or what ever.

I think you need to take a look at your life, I see you have a girlfriend, you have a job, some people don't have any of those things, people are so much worse of than you, personally I think you have it good! You might be unhappy with some aspects of your life but you need to focus on the good because it's such a downwards spiral. I was once given a piece of advice from my mum, she said to me the secret to a good life is contentment, for a long time I thought to my self why should I be content when I want more but then I realised what I really want is to be happy and I don't need more.

BDD+depression+legitimate flaws+atheism will make even the people who have achieved the pinnacles of life not want to live. I know that I'm objectively better off than majority of people, but the pure fact that I'm not perfection makes me want to cease existing.

I know, I'm guilty of wanting to die myself, it's been a constant battle for me the last few years finding reason to live, and to be honest I'm only just finding some. But I still think about it, I've even tried a few times. Life is $#%^! It's unfair, people have what others don't but there not much we can really do about it, so why dwell on something we can't fix? I know we can fix our faces, but will that truly make you happy?

know we can fix our faces, but will that truly make you happy?

Yes!

Well who really cares about those expensive cars and the stupid superficial people in it. It's so hollow and vain if you think about it. People like that have an insatiable hunger for, just as superficial, 'admiration' from others. Fortunately, here in Holland you have a lot less of those morons than in the USA.