I feel like my face changes

Since, I was in my teens, I have had thoughts that I look like a hideous monster - but not all the time like typical BDD sufferers. Because of this, I've never seeked professional help. I've tried just about everything to try and keep myself looking ok all the time; from different food, sleep plans, face creams, make up, exercise - you name it I've done it.

Still nothing has worked, and I now feel ugly nearly 90% of the time. I've lost all my friends, hardly ever see my family, haven't been able to keep a job and worst of all I can feel my mind deteriorating. I am isolated with the curtains closed almost 24/7. If anybody ever comes around, who I know I run out of the house so I won't have to interact with them.

I don't know where to go from here, I want to get professional help and I am planning on seeing a doctor, but if anyone else can help me with how they cope, I'd appreciate it.

Jacob