Im cursed

Hello my fellow sufferers , it has been pretty bad for me for the past 2 years , especially after adulthood when i started to realize the significant importance of looks , I would like to mention following things

1) My flaws make me so distressed to a point , where i start getting dizzy , gasping for air , heart starts beating faster , nausea
2) To be honest i still have not seen anyone , (no joke) with the same flaws as mine or as ugly ...

3) My major flaw is my bone structure , i have been quite skinny for all my life , ( a death sentence for males , as they are expected to be strong) , but my skinniness is really weird , Its like my bones stopped growing after a certain age and my whole body looks underdeveloped , Its like throughout all of my body , vertical growth is prominent (my limbs , bones and face) the lateral growth is non existent

4) This deformity makes my face look really horrendous , i cant help but feel that God purposely gave my the worst combination ever , my cheek bones are recessed and that gives my eyes melting look and makes my lips appear like a ######6 duck , my neck is also like a pencil with a slight adams apple that makes it look horrible

5) Due to my looks , let alone a girlfriend , I have never been able to talk to girls because of the horrible looks ive recieved from them

6) And the most disheartening part .... my flaw (bone structure) can not be changed , im stuck with this forever , I plan on getting surgery but dont have enough money at the moment , It really has been ######6 unfair to me , I cry most of days knowing no one other in the world has to endure this torture , the way i feel is next level .... I just need someone to talk , someone to i can relate , Because talking to normal people makes me even more suicidal as i realize all the thing i want but they have .... These thoughts even have kept me up at night .... Thats all thx

You can talk to me. I can absolutely relate to what you described. The symptoms are debilitating