Am I ugly or is it just in my head?

Hello,

I have struggled with my appearance for a few months now, it stemmed after my long term relationship came to an end, I struggled to find myself again and it has really effected the way I see myself and view my self worth.

Before I used to believe I was a pretty decent looking guy, but as of late I can not see anything I like about myself, one side of my face seems to be way out of symmetry with the other, I am constantly checking the mirror and sometimes I like what I see but then I read about how we see ourselves more favourable in our mirror reflection and others see us differently.

So I made a true mirror and my reflection in there isn’t too different to my mirror image, but sometimes I will look into it and hate what I see. I am in a constant up and down with how I. View myself, some days I can feel good looking and other days I can feel ugly. I am trying to build confidence and meet new women by maintaining eye contact and approaching but each time I go out I am constantly telling myself that nobody finds me attractive which in term makes me not want to approach any women,

I have had a handful of girlfriends over the years, some short term and a couple long term, my family tell me I’m good looking and a some girls tell me, but I do t believe them. I am stuck in a self hating state and I’m not sure what I can do about it