Is this BDD?

I'm 18, the obsessions with my appearance started when I was about 14 I think. I was really fat back then, about 115kg. Now I weigh 80kg but social anxiety and obsessions are still haunting me.

The severe symptoms of my obsession appeared about 2 years ago. I hate how my hips look, my nose is too big, my hair is thinning and overall I still look fat and unproportioned. I take photos of my face and my body when I'm alone, and obsess even more.

I sometimes ask my close ones if I have unproportioned hips or if i'm fat or ugly (for reassurance). They say i'm normal but I always think at the back of my head "of course he's lying, he cant tell you that you're ugly because that would hurt you". I also compare myself to other people a lot.

There hasn't been one day since mid 2017 that I haven't thought about ending my life, but I don't do it because that would cause a trauma to my family.

The thing is, sometimes, not really often, but sometimes, I like how my face looks. With a very specific light source (above the face) and proper hair. Can this still be BDD? Or would a person with BDD never like a feature of his body?

Other mental issues that I have / may have (undiagnosed):
Social Anxiety & pure-o OCD
Depression (most likely)

thugga wrote:The thing is, sometimes, not really often, but sometimes, I like how my face looks. With a very specific light source (above the face) and proper hair. Can this still be BDD? Or would a person with BDD never like a feature of his body?

Yes, this can still be BDD.

I think a lot of people with BDD can sometimes experience this phenomenon where sometimes their appearance looks okay or acceptable to them, but it can be very dependent on other internal and external factors; such as very particular lighting and angle conditions, the mirror or camera being used, or how they feel otherwise in themselves.

I've definitely experienced this before, and I've had a diagnosis of BDD for quite some years.