Newly diagnosed

When I look in the mirror, I see a gargoyle, I see a monster, I see the most repulsive thing ever to walk the face of the earth. When I leave the house I keep my head down, I apologize constantly to everyone because I am sorry that they have to look at me. I cannot help but notice that people laugh when I walk by and that I am always sat in the back corner of a restaurant.
I cut myself now to deal with the effects of this and my panic disorder (I am a rape victim)
I always thought BDD was anorexics and bulemics...I am a fat woman (seriously, this is not part of the disorder).
My thought is that I am one f--king ugly person, not that I suffer from anything.
Does anyone else have this specific issue - and I am also 28 years old, not a teenager, so have I been correctly diagnosed?

people are far too busy to pass judgement on everyone they see, have you tried an antidepressant med for the anxiety and panic attacks? lots of info about coping with panic attacks on the net
try getting out and about in areas where you arent known and need not return to later, this may be less stressful for you
disguise yourself with a hat and suglasses

I appreciate the reply. I am on many medications to help me deal with everything. I have started acupuncture and biofeedback lately to try and control the stress and anxiety.
It had been over 3 weeks since I had cut until last night, so the response was almost timely! Now the temptation is so great, it is taking everything that I have not to do it.
The BDD is difficult for me to understand. If I hear laughter, I automatically think that it is directed at me...I'm not sure how to deal with it.