On living with Bipolar Disorder and self-harm

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eugene

moments of mahem was very interesting for me. thank you for sharing.

My story:

I have bipolar (ultra ultra rapid - untreated for 27 years), SA (in home and out), neglect, physical abuse - which has led at times to PTSD, and cutting; being socially unaware, full of denial, harboring all sorts of strange thoughts and slights.

A lot of T, time, and a survivors spirit has brought me along the healing path where I can actually see how all of those things have changed me, and how I have been able to adapt/fit in (sometime well, other times not so well).

I doubt I will ever be a totally happy and balanced person. But, I am holding down a tough Management job, raising two children (well), and have a solid marriage.

I have been working hard to finish figuring out the pieces I have not understood, and fit them together, while I maintain my life - that is very difficult. I am not doing so well at my job for the past 18 months or so as I have persued this work.

I have never been S - but I have wished at times to just not wake up.

I am glad to have been born and to be alive, I am glad of the same for you.

My keywords are clear vision and compassion.

Take care,
Walt