What's Your Story?

Thanks Cracked Girl. I can see you do a huge amount of good around the forum.

I admire your own honesty in this forum topic. From my experience in AA trying to combat alcoholism,there is a group chemistry released when people share their experience, strength and hope in battling a common illness. Keep up the good work because together we are all much stronger in this journey than going it alone

I totally agree with you about group chemistry and thank you for your kind words.

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Hi....I am a former psychiatric nurse for 23 years in a State Hospital...I was first diagnosed when I was 24 in 1975 but did not accept my diagnosis till 1997 when I got so sick I had to take a disability retirement. I am diagnosed Bipolar II but think I am Bipolar I. I am currently somewhat manic and feel pretty good right now. I felt terrible a few hours ago so I took some of my PRN meds and feel good enough to come here. I was a mess a few hours ago. Very nervous,and exhausted. I hope I can get some support here and get to know others going through the same things I am.

Popeyesspinich wrote:Hi....I am a former psychiatric nurse for 23 years in a State Hospital...I was first diagnosed when I was 24 in 1975 but did not accept my diagnosis till 1997 when I got so sick I had to take a disability retirement. I am diagnosed Bipolar II but think I am Bipolar I. I am currently somewhat manic and feel pretty good right now. I felt terrible a few hours ago so I took some of my PRN meds and feel good enough to come here. I was a mess a few hours ago. Very nervous,and exhausted. I hope I can get some support here and get to know others going through the same things I am.

Welcome to the forum, I hope it helps you and you find it a safe and supportive place to post.

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Popeyesspinich wrote:Hi.... Very nervous,and exhausted. I hope I can get some support here and get to know others going through the same things I am.

Hello and welcome to the forum. I only joined recently and have already found it very informative and friendly. Like you, I have BP2 that was only properly diagnosed at age 42. And I have found that accepting the diagnosis allows you to on to how to better manage your life to reduce the impact of BP.

I went for my first ever singing lesson today, even though I have been in a few bands etc for about 10 years. A regular person would have done it the other way around but there is never a right way. Just lots of choices. I wish you well on your journey

A majority of my life I was manic and got emotional Highs from joking around with friends. I fell in love twice, once with a normal girl and the second time with a sociopath. The sociopath girl tormented me emotionally which led me into a massive depression where I became suicidal. Due to severe depression I lost my personality and social skills and i've been trying to piece together my life ever sense.

Welcome to the forum Maenad. I hope you find it safe and supportive.

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Thank you and i hope so.

My name is Kasey I'm 22 years old. I have struggled with Bipolar disorder but I can't pinpoint when my symptoms began. My story is that I had a good childhood the only complaint I have is that my parents worked a lot and couldn't provide me with the emotional support I think I needed growing up. When I was 13 I met a boy and fell in love. While we were dating even though I loved him I felt the need to date other people or flirt with other people. There was no explanation that I could provide to him. We got married when I turned 18 and things were wonderful at first. I began to continue putting myself in situations where I would cheat on him. After time would pass I would come back to him and tell him it would never happen again but it always did. This has created a not so pleasant marriage for the both of us with much fighting and stress. I haven't had an episode of this behavior for a while until now.. My husband and I began working together at a small factory we had been getting along quite well. I met a guy at work that I fell for and it felt like it was so real. I kept thinking to myself this is fate and this is what I'm supposed to be doing, this isn't like all the other times where I would cheat and come home. This is the REAL DEAL. So I left my husband and told him I wanted a divorce I even went as far as going to the court house and getting the papers, changing our bank accounts etc which I have NEVER done in the past. I started dating the guy from work and hes a great person that I thought I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. Until about 4 days ago or so its like I woke up from this awful dream and nothing was real anymore. I wanted to go home only to find that my husband had moved on and no longer wanted to be with a person that ruined his life for so long. Now I feel stuck. I now know I was going through a mania and there was nothing "real" about anything. I'm getting ready to start a IOP program and get back on meds. I'm interested in meeting someone to chat with that is also bipolar in order to learn more about everyone's personal symptoms because this disorder has made me feel like a monster.. and I feel like giving up.

Thanks for listening

Welcome to the forum Kasey, I am sorry you are struggling so much. i hope you find the community here a safe and supportive one.

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