NEED ADVICE PLEASE, NEW TO THIS

Hello,
My husband is bipolar and I wish I would have known some of these things when we first met. I fell in love before I really knew what I was getting into and believe me it has been a trying 2 years since we first met.
The hardest part is that I feel deep down inside that we didn't work out because of his disorder. He is a wonderful man, but because of bipolar he is also self centered , jealous, possessive, paranoid and selfish- traits that he cannot control and that ultimately drove me away. He blamed me for everything, had me halfway convinced I was the one with the problem and I couldn't find real help anywhere.
I feel like I have turned my back on him, but when he left me this last time (AUGUST) I just knew I couldn't go through it anymore. Does that make me a bad person? I feel lonely and alone and if there is anyone else out there who has been through this I would love to hear your thoughts. I still love him and want be with him.Thanks for listening.

Wow. I liked how Cableart gave you advice. Cableart may be right. I do empathize you a lot. Myself, I do feel like what your gf feels mostly but not to some extent. Heck it can be soo confusing. I do not like anyone other than rational person to tell me what's wrong with me. If I were her, I would react like that. I can relate to her. I know it's purely unsolicited advice. My advice to you from someone who was told like that, be gentle with her. Be understanding. Be empathy to her feelings. I know it can be confusing with attention. My mother has learned to deal with me. It took years for her. She found ways to deal with me. I told her I'm fine, I'm fine. She knows I'm not fine but she let me be who I am. That's important. Perhap she will step up on her own. Let her be her own. I'm sorry if I make you feel worst which wasn't my intention. I just want to advise you to be patient with her. She may preserve her sanity by acting on those emotions. It's VERY Selfless. I know it may sound selfish to you. The problems may lie within rational/irrational process which is nearly impossible to measure the emotions or whatsoever. Keep showing love. Believe me, take it for granted is worst than never been loved.
Regards.