do it sound like i bipolar.

hi every one i new here and hope you could help me.

im a 19 year old male. basicly my problem is this. i get periods where i really low and feel like i cont do anything and just want to lazy about doing nothing as i feel like i have no enegry at all. plus i dont sleep well i also made 2 attempts in commiting suicide but both failed and also cut my self. last week my college tutor seen cuts on my arm and he wants me to see my doctor cause he thinks i suffer from depression but i think it aint just depression. as sometimes i can be mega yet other times i will never keep still and come up with so many ideas so fast that i cont keep up with then. plus i go on big spending sprees on alchol and cont seem to stop my self. i also often very angry for no reason even a slightist mistake sends me in a rage plus when i in these moods i sleep well little sometimes dont sleep for whole days.

Do you think that this sound like bipolar. if not any idea what it might be.

I have not told my family or doctor how i feel. and i dont want to go to doctors cause i scared she will think im crazy or something like that and dump me on some kinda crazy drugs.

thanks for helping.

Yes, it does sound like you may have many of the symptoms. I know it is scary, but you deserve to feel stable and to be happy. Please find a doctor you comfortable with and have it checked out. You owe to yourself and for those that care about you.

i would but my doctor would think im insane and i dont want my family knowing either. i want to see a doctor but scared she will do nothing about it.

to be honest i not know any more if i am sane or what everything feels so confusing. and got people demanding answers to questions i not know the answers to my self. just drive me mad in not knowing.