Bipolar relationship with Schizophrenic

I met my best friend when I was 17. I was bipolar, she was schizophrenic, and we were inseparable. Our friendship lasted about 4 years, and then I had to end it. As she got older, she became increasingly irresponsible, childish, and selfish. It was too hard for me to accept that the schizophrenia was deteriorating her brain. She was making horrible life choices and this caused me to lose all my respect for her.

Now that she is a bit more stable, she has a steady boyfriend. And this guy is LOADED. They're on a 10 day trip to California right now. He spoils her like CRAZY. Sometimes I get SO mad about this, and I don't know why. It's not that I feel she doesn't deserve him, but what does he see in her? I think she is an inferior human being. I know that sounds cruel. And I don't even know why I think that.

Why why WHY do I feel this way about her? I mean, I KNOW I'm jealous, who wouldn't be? How can I stop hating her so much??

Mybe the loss of someone who you could relate to mentally to someone who is stable and well off makes you angry. The idea of knowing that your counterpart is off enjoying the benfits of rich people after you threw her away stings? Im really not sure im just relating to my simalr experinces

Sounds to me just like your everyday jealousy. I get jealous pretty easily. When I work my butt off for what I have, face a gazillion issues, and others seem to have thing sjust fall in their lap. It makes me totally resentful.

Hello,
It sounds to me, solemn, like you need to be fully honest with yourself and identify the root of why you're feeling the way you're feeling in order to fix the situation. Spiteful towards the best friend for past reasons? I noticed that you still called her your best friend - is there a chance for recovery there? How does she feel about you? Good friends can be hard to come by in life, especially with bp disorder - most of my closest friends deal with a one mental issue or another; it can be helpful to have someone who understands what a struggle we go through in our day to day lives. Sorry for the twenty questions - your post just caught my eye and I have somewhat of a knack for helping with relationship issues. One quote that I feel might apply here - "Jealousy is no more than feeling alone against smiling enemies." Hope to hear more, and I hope everything straightens itself out with you
~Rob

You think she's an inferior human being because she wore you down and Bipolars naturally have a low tolerance for anything they disagree with.
So since she wore you down, she MUST be inferior and everyone must find her as unappealing as you do.
That's what's happening, but the truth is that not everyone WILL find her that way.

Lots of people have written me off, but there are just as many people that never get tired of me.

If you don't like her, ignore her existence.
I'm sure she's doing exactly that with you and enjoying her man, who does like her.
^_^
Hope I helped.

what do you know, I'm on the same forum as you. Liz, I'm sorry you feel that way. I know I was very unstable for a while and may have made bad choices, but my whole life changed when I met cody. I'm sorry you're jealous about him. I can understand it. You don't need to be though. I know you don't respect me and think I'm an "inferior human being," but I really don't feel like I deserve you to think that way about me. For years I was always there for you. In return you started dating my brother and left me in the dust. I don't think I deserved that either. I hate that you feel this way about me. I hate that for years we were happy and brought each other such joy, and then you let it stop. You've never told me what made you run away. I guess I know now. Just know, that everything is different for me now. I'm actually happy and looking to start a good, productive life. I guess I never stopped caring about you and would like you to me more than my brother's girlfriend, but if you can't respect me, I guess we can't. I'm sorry for causing such rage in you. I never meant to.

Feeling voyeuristic...

Yeah really... I don't even have my real name on this profile so you must've really done some digging.. And it creeps me out even more that your boyfriend found it. You guys are really weird. Please leave me alone.

How do I delete this thread? I don't want this BS showing up every time I sign in.

You can't.
Ask Chucky to lock it if you really want it to be inactive.

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Chucky says: Done / locked