why am i so suspicious?

why am i so suspicious ? i dont trust people even family, sthey are out to hurt me in any way they can, i feel they are watchng me my neighbours are spying on me , if i chat to someone online i dont trust who they say they are if they say they are female i think they are male ect i really think other people want me to lose it and i cant stop thinking about hurting myself and sometimes other people too, i rarely use the phone because i dont know if im actually speaking to anyone, i feel like a ticking time bomb i really am losing it

HI

I am feeling, you need to see some therapist. Because you are totally fearful person, may be you are not able to trust on someone's sayings. Really, don't mind in going to see a therapist. Do you have another problems?

thank you ravine for replying
i havent been out of my house in months because people are spying on me my curtains are closed and i live mostly in the dark ive been waiting a long time to speak to someone but i really think they want me to lose it again so they can keep me in hospital they wanted to last time but they dont understand that i cant stay because my head wants to explode wth all the noise every day i want to end it but later that day i am very happy and i dont understand

hello me123,

No problem, Do you have friends? you can tell them and share your problem with them. You should spend some time with someone who can give you safety and support. You should come out from those dark. It's your birth right to leave this darkness. Hmmm, do you talk to your family? I want to say you something, don't focus on others. They will try everything to make you feel bad. If you don't pay attention to them, they will not be able to make you feel bad. Don't mind.

I am happy that you were happy that day, may be you had thought something good and you smiled. Just continue this. It will help you a lot.

does anyone really give a toss i mean really ? i am over the edge annd i dont care
no onw can help me so confused want to hurt need to hurt trying to stay awawy from anything aharp gawd i really want to so alone
so so alone

Hi me123,

Why are you so worrying and coming down? Its' ok. Don't worry. See, if you want to stay alone for a while, then it is your wish. But listen, it will stop your all growth. You can come here and can keep yourself freely, just i want to tell you that don't keep yourself, totally away from this world. Living life as alone person may affect your life. I am telling you all this to come out from this your problem, it is good for you. Keep talking to us, so you will become strong and may be we can help you.

What do you think, will you talk to us? See, don't afraid of us. Here no one is harass you or no one will tell you anything about yourself. I want you to become OK condition.

please help me

me123 wrote:please help me

yes, i will. tell me what do you want to discuss with me? ( Please,don't mind my internet little bit slower). But i will make one request to you. Don't think worry and think about that you are lonely. IS that ok?

i am not lonely ravine i am alone
i am so confused i dont understand my head its about to explode i dont know what to do i ant think straight 1 thought after another

me123 wrote:i am not lonely ravine i am alone
i am so confused i dont understand my head its about to explode i dont know what to do i ant think straight 1 thought after another

Me123,

See, it is not necessary to think one after another. Now i got the point you want to say. You are feeling helpless. Do you want help in your work? like study or whatever you are doing. Let me know , do you want help to communicate with others? if you tell me, then i can give support in specific manner.