Manic depression is simple

I Have bipolar and i kind of feel like its influenced by both internal and external factors. Sometimes my mood changes dramatically for no apparent reason or maybe the reason is so small i don't see it.
In my experience no amount of pills, diet etc. can cure it you just have to learn to manage it the best you can and try and keeps the ups and downs from becaming too extreme- not letting them destroy you- the only thing that keeps you going is hope. Even when there is no realistic hope you have to keep a fantasy of hope that your suffering somehow has a purpose that only God knows.
Everything will be balanced out something good will happen to out weigh the bad.
Sorry this probably doesn';t make sense i'm starting to go manic- and i disagree that that is better than depression with both comes a lack of control a lack of insight and ultimatly damage to yourself and your life- all we can strive for is an ounce of stability- an island in the chaos.
Hope

I belive Manic Depression can have a normal state too.

Emily, I don't have Bipolar but I can see clearly how it can be worse than just depression. I have been depressed for many years now and it has been rather constant. However, I do know that constantly drifting between high and low can be very frustration and, indeed, worse than 'just' depression. It's like teasing the sufferer to some extent.

the high is better than the low, that is for certain.

How do you handle the change to the low? Do you anticiptae and prepare for it, or does it catch you off-guard?

I think I just have Manic and normal, but it can hurt and previously I have attempted suicide, unsuccessful. Try not to hurt yourself is what I try todo and those around me.

PS for the suicide it was like probably not possible because I would of been on my bike and they would have to of hit me fast and sometimes they don't go that fast at that area but sometimes they do. It was something really stupid which I would never do again now that I have things to live for.

I have had the super low for a long time.

My memory seems to be that internal "spontaneous" trigger that flips the mood switch.
Echoes of past events and emotions at that particular moment repeat and repeat and repeat until they fade away outlouded by other memories.

There is a time machine, it is called a regreat.

glassbreaker wrote:My memory seems to be that internal "spontaneous" trigger that flips the mood switch.
Echoes of past events and emotions at that particular moment repeat and repeat and repeat until they fade away outlouded by other memories.

There is a time machine, it is called a regreat.

Incredibly identical to how I feel about it.

The second I remember something of my past, it triggers a mood change. As though I'm reliving that old life. I can not stand it. And there's no telling how long it lasts. But yes, it happens, over and over and over again. Until another memory fills its place.

I try to fight it, but then all I'm stuck doing is indirectly dwelling on those memories in any case. And it makes it worse.

Been happening a lot recently.

I agree with glassbreaker. I feel the best thing any of us can ever do is to keep trying and move forward with life whichever way it takes us but keep with us our common sense and humanity.

I was wondering, does anyone enjoy their manics?