Bipolar, and taking care of aging parents

SO i have bipolar and like most of us, im on a ton of meds, which thanks to pill pack, i am able to manage relatively well. THe true stress of my life is my aging parents. I have to cook, and try to clean, and do laundry, and other task that are like trying to maintain a job 24 hrs a day. My dad woke me up at 3am once because he couldnt get ice for his cup. They lean hard on me, and the Social security administration has already taken away my benefits (disability and medical) once, because i help out my parents. I still dont know how they knew about me helping my parents, the paranoid and anxious parts of me wonder if they are stalking me online or in real life. With the help of my pdoc and couselor, I was able to get my benefits restored, but now there is talk in the government about putting people like me through that every 6 to 12 months instead of every few years, but thats a worry for another time.

I have two sisters who say they will help, and have helped some, but i still bear the brunt of it because i live with my parents and have no social safety net in the area, so if i want to spend time with any of my friends from the before time, i have to plan weeks in advance and make a 4hr roundtrip drive.

Maybe this is nothing, and I have read many post on here where people are facing much more difficult situations. i usually just write things like this in word documents and leave them in an untiltled folder on my computer, but today has been particularly bad, and i just wanted to know that someone out there knew what i was feeling instead of just burying it on my computer.

HAve a goodnight everyone.

Hi javert03,

Your struggles aren’t nothing. I wish I had some words of wisdom, but I don’t. The struggle is real.

UPDATE: My father fell last weekend and broke both his legs. he is in a nursing home for 8 to 10 weeks. I feel horrible and I am having health problems due to stress. I need a miracle.