dreamland

Sometimes a sense of odd lucidity washes over me, like I'm in a dreamlike state, kind of like dejavu, but not really. A scenery that's abandoned and washed in a dying orange light. Shadowy figures flee from the edge of my vision everywhere I look, and in front of me, always a rainbowy, translucent ring of light that changes shapes. Does anyone else travel to a special place in their head that changes their surroundings? I think it must be related to my BPD.

sometimes i just feel fake, like im in a dream. but also sometimes.....ive never hallucinated vividly , but i can create these movies in my head that i could almost want to or need to make real. sometimes over whelming with rushes of energy i dont know what do with...idk sorry if that was so off