Please let it rip!

I use to love it here because other people shared their crazy stuff like I shared crazy stuff.

Sometimes it was a romantic involvement while attending university including missing classes, handing in assignments late, and being attracted to someone else at the same time, mean while skipping your medication.

Or it was a Credit Card binge on amazing stuff that you just know would lead to personal fulfillment and world peace... things like buying one cage and two rats... male and female, both not neutered and very horny...

Conflict at home or work. Either way, people didn't understand your profound honesty and compulsion to tell the truth as you see it.

Personal hygiene... When the cat jumps up on the bed and comes close to your head, the cat starts to scratch the quilt like it is burying something in it's cat box.

This stuff is too funny, and I've been there too. We are not alone.

I've been getting into the eggnog so pardon me.

I used to dream of changing the world for the better. I was going to rule it, in my eighth grade mind, but a crush on a distant cousin caused trouble and I gave up for a while.

After high school my ambitions came back and I studied abroad and traveled and felt invincible. In college I felt hope and happiness. Some of my best and worst moments were me, unmedicated, raw, and honest.

Now I'm more stable, on medication. I don't have much desire for anything anymore. I don't even use my college degree. I thought I'd change the world, and now I'm barely a part of it.

I want to do something to be remembered by but I'm a bit of a failure. I live on alcohol and promises and love, which really isn't the worst way to live- love, I mean. My wife and I have been together for nine years, and I don't regret a single day of it, except some of my actions while off my meds and crazy.

My BPD runs my life. My bipolar just adds to it.

I'm a manipulative little $#!t though. I have plans to be wild and free and off my meds. I just gotta talk my doctor into agreeing with me. I'm good at that at least. Everybody's got a talent. Mine is playing the doctors when I need to.

Yeah skrilldawg, wouldn’t mind hearing more common issues like impulsive spending habits as well, but then again if I had it my way people here would be older and more mature, no threads about things I don’t want to hear, they’d completely remove the closed pedo forum that I didn’t even see until yesterday. That kind of stuff at the least needs a mental health professional to mediate so it really doesn’t belong on here but I can’t have it that way. It’s an open forum for mental illness, it’s crazy enough on here. But that’s just what I’d want.

-- Mon Dec 17, 2018 10:54 am --

Yeah skrilldawg, wouldn’t mind hearing more common issues like impulsive spending habits as well, but then again if I had it my way people here would be older and more mature, no threads about things I don’t want to hear, they’d completely remove the closed pedo forum that I didn’t even see until yesterday. That kind of stuff at the least needs a mental health professional to mediate so it really doesn’t belong on here but I can’t have it that way. It’s an open forum for mental illness, it’s crazy enough on here. But that’s just what I’d want.

Justddrown wrote:Yeah skrilldawg, wouldn’t mind hearing more common issues like impulsive spending habits as well, but then again if I had it my way people here would be older and more mature, no threads about things I don’t want to hear, they’d completely remove the closed pedo forum that I didn’t even see until yesterday. That kind of stuff at the least needs a mental health professional to mediate so it really doesn’t belong on here but I can’t have it that way. It’s an open forum for mental illness, it’s crazy enough on here. But that’s just what I’d want.

-- Mon Dec 17, 2018 10:54 am --

Yeah skrilldawg, wouldn’t mind hearing more common issues like impulsive spending habits as well, but then again if I had it my way people here would be older and more mature, no threads about things I don’t want to hear, they’d completely remove the closed pedo forum that I didn’t even see until yesterday. That kind of stuff at the least needs a mental health professional to mediate so it really doesn’t belong on here but I can’t have it that way. It’s an open forum for mental illness, it’s crazy enough on here. But that’s just what I’d want.

If two is good, then 4 is better. Totally Bipolar!
my answer to things I don't want to read is that I don't read them.
I'm older but still immature. When I fart in the bath tub I pop the bubbles with me nose.

Justddrown wrote:Yeah skrilldawg, wouldn’t mind hearing more common issues like impulsive spending habits as well, but then again if I had it my way people here would be older and more mature, no threads about things I don’t want to hear, they’d completely remove the closed pedo forum that I didn’t even see until yesterday. That kind of stuff at the least needs a mental health professional to mediate so it really doesn’t belong on here but I can’t have it that way. It’s an open forum for mental illness, it’s crazy enough on here. But that’s just what I’d want.

-- Mon Dec 17, 2018 10:54 am --

Yeah skrilldawg, wouldn’t mind hearing more common issues like impulsive spending habits as well, but then again if I had it my way people here would be older and more mature, no threads about things I don’t want to hear, they’d completely remove the closed pedo forum that I didn’t even see until yesterday. That kind of stuff at the least needs a mental health professional to mediate so it really doesn’t belong on here but I can’t have it that way. It’s an open forum for mental illness, it’s crazy enough on here. But that’s just what I’d want.

Skrilldawg, what if their comes a time where you regret being immature for so long? I just get the feeling you possess potential and you’re ok just letting it pass you by. Wouldn’t it suck to wake up 50yrs old and feeling that much time wasted on immaturity? Do you have anything you want to work for in life? Career? Family? Romance? Doing things for others out of love? Is their legitimately anything or are you happy the way things are? You don’t sound happy but you seem fine with not caring about anything as well. Ima pray for you skrilldawg.