your visual hallucinations

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Skrilldawg have you tried just having something to say ready like “where are you going?” “I need to excuse myself for a moment” . You seem to have a decent vocabulary, their’s really no reason to just rush into blurting something like that out loud. I know fart and poop jokes are funny to some people but keep in mind that stuff isn’t really mature and also, people are eating which really makes saying things like that even more innapropriate than it already is. I’ve never heard of bipolar disorder necessarily having a symptom of saying whatever out of nowhere unless maybe you’re manic. You don’t have to alienate people you know.

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Mine also have a dreamlike quality, I can't describe it any other way because there's no word for such a feeling. Kind of like dejavu. But not really.

It happens for about 5-10 seconds every twenty minutes. Everything around me suddenly gets washed in a kind of sunset orange, and I feel like I'm in a lucid dream, I'm the only one alive, with a little bubble around me. Other people have the live bubbles connected to each other. But my bubble is connected to the building i'm in. The walls breathe. There are shadows that float around the corner of my eye. A flash of light, like a rainbowy, translucent glare, flashes around too. I love this dream-place. It's a rush of dopamine which levels only used to come from cutting.

Mostly auditory, and even those could mostly be explained under some sleep disorder. Except the one I mentioned here ages ago where I dropped something in kitchen and "someone" next to me said sorry..

Other than that, far as I know my only proper hallucination has been walking into parking lot trying to find a car.. only to see nothing where it actually was all the time. As in, I knew where it was.. when I walked outside it wasn't there, wandered around a bit, and it reappeared. Strange, unpleasantly anxiety causing and such, but not in any way malicious I guess.

Unless seeing shite at night counts. I'd rather put those under sleep disorders until proven otherwise. Except.. they don't really fit sleep disorder symptoms. Like sleep paralysis is supposed to keep you.. paralysed and think there's something in the room or night terrors manifest only when you're asleep. And.. I get something between those two, frequently. Wake up to thinking everything around me is monsters. Cloth hanging over a bed = monster. Clothes on a chair = monster. And when things aren't monsters, I wake up in completely unfamiliar place.. where I know there are monsters. Jolt up from a bad dream to see a monster over your bed bending over to your face.. that one was definitely different and I hope it'll never return. ¬¬