My brain is going crazy even though I'm stable

For the record my mood is stable right now so I'm not sure if this is a bp thing but here goes.

Lately I've been having bouts of paranoia coupled with some hallucinations (seeing people, hearing unintelligible whispers,etc.) and strange thinking. For example I feel like I'm being watched/followed from time to time and I'm suspicious of everyone as if they're spying on me/plotting against me. I turn up the music to keep this from happening. I don't know what to do about this. I've talked to my therapist and I'm being referred to psych testing. I can recognize when it's happening and defeat it but it's becoming harder to do so.

I'm scared of what they'll find.

Not diagnosing but schizoaffective is when you have psychosis outside of a mood episode. You may talk to your pdoc about it. It is treated very similarly to Bipolar. May adjust the antipsychotic dosage or something if you're having those types of thoughts it's good to nip it in the bud.

I do understand where you are coming from. I get the same in a general way. I am stable at the mo' but am getting paranoia moments and even some 's' moments which given my dosage and general demeanour has surprised me. I have heard of others who get 'events' even though they are generally even. Sounds to me as though you are taking the right steps anyway. Keep on smiling