Bipolar Depression? I guess?

A few years ago I was diagnosed with Bipolar II. I didn't believe it, because I didn't have the symptoms that I was used to seeing in movies and on TV. I initially went to the Dr. complaining of anxiety and depression. After a few sessions and some time spent on an anti-depressant (Celexa), she came up with that diagnosis. So I've been put on Depakote, then Seroquel, both of which made me feel fairly content but came with a massive weight gain and apathy. Now I'm still on the Celexa and also Latuda but I'm in a deep depression. The meds don't seem to be working. We recently tried Lithium but after 3 weeks of anxiety, we stopped it.

I'm depressed and paranoid and just feel this deep, primal fear. No matter what I'm doing, it's there. I feel it physically- I feel it in my shoulders and arms and it feels as if someone's sitting on my chest.

I'm assuming this is bipolar depression. Can anyone relate to how I'm feeling?

Have you considered Lamictal with your pdoc? That would be my #2 try after Lithium.

We tried it a while ago but it made me very irritable and angry. Thanks for your reply

Well, from my own experience, it took a great deal of trial and error to get my diagnosis and also to have me on the right medications and dosages to have me stable. So, don't give up. But eventually things were ok. Not perfect. I believe things can feel perfect for some time and for me, they come undone, then I bounce back up and I'm fine, but I continue to have slight mood swings even while I'm on meds. But that is just me. That seems to be my "normal" me these days. I do take an antidepressant (Wellbutrin) for depression and alongside it, I take an antipsychotic, vraylar, plus a mood stabilizer, Lamictal. All those must be taken together or I become unstable. The antipsychotic helped stabilize my depression. Even Abilify, also an antipsychotic, helped with that in the past when I was taking it. I don't know exactly why this is so, but I have read that an antipsychotic can also act like a mood stabilizer, but it's not classified as one, of course. It's what works for you. Best of luck to you and let us know how you are doing. Let us know what works for you.

Thank you