So I was diagnosed with bipolar after I had a psychotic episode early last year (and then had a much longer episode at the end of last year). I barely remember my time in the hospital, so there are literally months of memory that I don't have.
Before then, I don't think I had any of the symptoms of bipolar. Sure I had some trauma in my life but I always bounced back and was able to handle it, no stress. I was highly capable, functioning member of society.
But after these episodes I feel like I haven't been able to recover. Sure the symptoms are gone but now I worry if I'll deteriorate after not getting enough sleep for one night. I'm scared of what will happen when I get off my meds but at the same time I'm eager to get off them. I spend my days doing nothing of value.
On a side note, I know it may seem stupid but I'm only 22 and I'm itching to go out and have a nice drunk night out. But I can't because of these damn meds. I don't want to miss my opportunity to make dumb, drunk stories with my friends.
So, how do you guys recover and cope after an episode? What do you think is the best way to handle bipoler? Do you have any tips for me?