quitting my job *trigger*

I have decided to leave my job. Sending the letter to my manager tomorrow.

I don't have anything lined up and will begin looking for work immediately.

The stress got to me. I have been cycling since March, deeply depressed then manic AF then back to depression. I've been suicidal for 2 weeks. I took a week off from work after getting a letter from my Dr. During that time away I realized what a toll the job has taken. Everyone I know was telling me the job wasn't worth it and I should leave. So that's what I'm doing. My safety and health have to come first. No use in staying in a place that makes me want to jump in front of a bus.

I always blamed myself... "oh I'm bipolar and am having an episode." NO! Sometimes it's the environment that's wrong, that needs to be changed.

Any support or words of encouragement would be helpful. Let me know if you've been through something similar. If you've needed to make major life changes for your health.

I've had a lot of bad jobs. I had to close at 11:30PM at one job and couldn't fall asleep afterwards until 3AM. It was either that or work the morning shift and get up at 5AM or something. My best jobs had flexible schedules or even working from home that I could manage to do even if I was in a bad mood. It depends a lot on the boss and coworkers as well. A high stress job is a recipe for disaster.

I was fired from my job after I fell apart and screwed up majorly. No one got hurt but it was a struggle to find a new job. I eventually went on disability because the stress was affecting me so bad. I wish I had had the strength to be able to walk away from the bad situation I was in rather then let it all fall apart.

z7z — I would love something that had flexibility. The last day I worked, two weeks ago, I left the office to work from home. My boss freaked. Texted me chewing me out. My coworker had notified her I left the office. Bastard.

javert03 — Not being fired was a big part of my goal. If my performance had continued to slip I would for sure have been fired at some point. Leaving on my own terms was important to me.

Thanks both of you for the comments. Good luck snd hope you're well.