confused *trigger*

I feel very confused.

Everything seems like a dream to me right now.

I am having trouble thinking clearly. In part because of the hydrozizine I took 2 hours ago. But I have felt like this for many hours before that.

I am suicidal.

My day started out fine. I was happy. I thought yay the meds are working. Then I became irritable and felt like stepping in front of a bus.

I tried leaving work early but my boss ignored my request. I hate her.

I didn't really look at traffic as I stepped into the street to cross it. I thought if it weren't entirely on purpose it would be better that way.

I talked to my T but it was a weird conversation.

My Dr. did not call me back.

A friend was very supportive. We texted.

I am not going to a hospital.

I would talk to your pdoc ASAP. There really should be emergency psychiatric clinics separate from the ER. Don't give up. Being happy and stable is usually as simple as adjusting your medication.

z7z wrote:I would talk to your pdoc ASAP. There really should be emergency psychiatric clinics separate from the ER. Don't give up. Being happy and stable is usually as simple as adjusting your medication.

Thanks for that, I'm going back on lithium, despite the side effects. And have agreed with my therapist to go to emergency care if things get bad again.