New; any suggestions?

I have been fighting depression my whole life. I'm 44. One day the world is after me and I can't go outside; the next day I am a celebrity and can't wait to approach people because everyone wants my autograph. Reality switches multiple times daily. All of my relationships are gone, lost all of my family ties, my 3rd marriage is about to end, I've been to 4 different colleges and never completed a semester, I've had over 35 jobs, etc.. Unemployed now. Trying to Uber but often can't get outside. My wife and I with our 3 daughter's just got evicted for the 2nd time in a row due to lack of income and are living in a small motel right now. I go to a therapist and then feel so great one day and stop going. What is real to me and what is the correct thing to do switches regularly. Was diagnosed with depression and bipolar. I'm hopeless at rock bottom. Love you