Hi everyone,
I'm sure there are endless threads out there about weight gain and antipsychotics, as it's such a common problem, but, as in the title, it's something which I'm finding extremely upsetting- and I've just been triggered by having to go up a size, yet again, in clothes for my lower body, which is where I've put on most of the weight (I'm female, by the way).
Before beginning on antipsychotics long-term in September 2012- first Seroquel and then Zyprexa, too- I was a very slim UK ladies' size 6 to 8 (a US size 2 to 4, I believe), but gradually over the years, I've packed on about 3 stones (around 19kg). I honestly don't know my exact weight right now, as I've stopped weighing myself, as it was making me too distressed, but yesterday, when shopping for new, bigger clothes, a UK size 12 or 14 fit me (US size 8 to 10).
I know it's the APs causing the weight gain, as when I came off Seroquel, and just on to my mood stabiliser, Tegretol, for six months in 2014, I soon dropped almost all the weight and was back to a UK size 8 (US 4). Unfortunately, once my dad died suddenly, the stress of that sent me into a mixed episode and back on the APs.
A bit of back story... I've been on Zyprexa this time around since about March 2016, when the Seroquel I was taking just wasn't touching the severe mixed episode/psychosis I went in to. As soon as we added in Zyprexa, though, I began to improve, and historically this has been a very effective medication for my mania and mixed episodes. At one point, I was on both Seroquel and Zyprexa, and my highest dosages were 800mg Seroquel and 20mg Zyprexa (pretty much maxed out).
Over the last year or so, I've been working on reducing the Zyprexa dosage, under a pdoc's supervision, and have gone very slowly from 20mg to 5mg. I also gradually reduced and came off the Seroquel by October 2017.
Back to the topic... I eat fairly healthily (calorie controlled, with vegetables at every meal) and try not to snack between meals during the day, though I admit, I tend to snack during the night as I get so hungry once I've taken my Zyprexa, but try to keep it calorie controlled at 100-200 calories. I also exercise for about 30 minutes 5 to 7 times a week, doing a mixture of hiit, weight training, yoga etc.
I think the most frustrating part of this is working so hard at keeping my weight down, yet finding it creeping up regardless. It's so demoralising and although I've come a long way in terms of reducing the Zyprexa dosage, my negative thinking keeps telling me I'll never get off it and will continue to get bigger and bigger indefinitely. I know there are more important things in life than weight, such as mental wellbeing, but I just don't recognise myself anymore and feel so uncomfortable in my own skin.
Thanks to anyone who's read this long and rambling rant! If anyone can relate or has any advice, I'd love to hear it- thanks in advance.