Hello.
I am diagnosed schizoaffective bipolar type 1 and ptsd. I have also been treated for dissociative identity disorder. A few years ago I had my last major manic episode and since have been depressed. But I've been very stable despite the depression. Now I'm experiencing hypo mania, I don't believe it's full blown because I'm still managingbut I feel so good. I dread going to my doctor because I know he will take my happiness away. I see it this way, it's not harming anyone. So why take away my happiness? I'm talkative and actually enjoy life when before I was just depressed. I think it's really mean that I'm not allowed to be happy. The doctor won't want me to be happy. My friends, family and significant other will be like oh no you can't be happy and I don't see why. I mean I do in a way see the logic but how come nobody cares when you are depressed? Just when you have mania, it's like any measure possible to stop it.
Rant over.