in crisis and scared

update:

mood is fluctuating ever so slightly. I have had a day or two of agitation or euphoria but nothing extreme. The Neurontin is helping so much.

But bigger news: I've quit drinking myself to sleep every single night. Today is day 2 sober for me! Im ecstatic. It's honestly tough. Tonight I want beer. I've replaced it with flavored seltzer. It's working.

Saw my Pdoc yesterday and she always asks about my drinking. I told her this month I had my usual 3 beers every night all month. So, she presented it this way: I'm in a toxic relationship with alcohol and the only option is to go no contact. I loved that! It's not judgmental. I know how to go no contact with something So yeah, so happy to be on the road to sobriety.

This should help my sleep and ultimately my mood and the efficacy of my meds!

Yay! ^o^ Sobriety is a great thing! It's shows great strength that you're able to do it!

I'm so happy for you! Things look like they're good and getting better

Very good you got help in a crisis. Last time I had a crisis I left my home for a few months and ran up my credit card living in motels and eating out. Toward the end I crash landed in the hospital and ended up losing my job because I couldn't call or show up to work from the psych ER. I'm still trying to put my life back together.

Son, I am so happy for you! (hugs if wanted)

I'm glad the meds are working, and your moods aren't in the extremes. And cutting out beer- huge props to you!

thanks to all!!! hugs and well wishes most appreciated. today is day 4 of sobriety. yes, i will count every single day because each day sober is such a gift and so meaningful to me!

everyone in my life has been super supportive. except one friend that was was not excited for me because I don't go to meetings. I explained I have family, friends, my therapist, and my Dr for support. I've "come out" as an alcoholic and they will help hold me accountable! so this guy was like, "yeah.... great." F that. i don't need that negativity from another alcoholic that hasn't been to a meeting in 15 years! projection of guilt much???

Huge hugs, Son! I'm very happy for you.