battled my Dr and won!

So today i went into my Dr's office with a piece of paper with all my manic symptoms.

I confronted her about my DX. She FINALLY after years of silence told me I have Bipolar 1. I am elated!

Not that that's such an awesome prize. We all know it sucks.

What Im ecstatic about it that after years of wondering whats wrong with me, of knowing something was up, of being TREATED FOR MANIA, she is now acknowledging it.

She told me, "you don't treat hypomania." That suddenly clicked for me. Like, of course!

She said when she first mentioned bipolar to me years ago I was crushed. And that's why she's downplayed it and skirted the issue ever since. And that now I'm in a place to hear it.

That lack of transparency makes me angry, but as a friend who is in the field said, she was actually being compassionate. Hearing "you have Bipolar 1 (or 2 or 3 or 4 or any of it) can be too upsetting for someone that isn't stable. There's truth to that.

So anyways I'm so happy to have been assertive and upfront this morning. I feel so much better. Special thx to Holodeck and JB for the support.

Yes the diagnosis can be shocking at first but it is a relief once you know you're not alone in your madness

Oh, Son! I'm so happy she listened to you! I'm glad I could be of help.