by Rev678 » Thu Aug 03, 2017 7:22 pm
I'm BP1. Don't really know much about hypomania, but I get delusions and psychosis all the time, manic or depressed, really. Thought maybe I could commiserate and share some good ones?
My favorite was this one time I was 5 shots in an hour level of drunk, and I was VERY manic, and I decided that flying just couldn't be that hard if a pigeon could do it. I was sitting on a roof at a house party I'd crashed. Didn't know anyone, but more than a few people were quite upset that some girl seemingly leapt off the roof into the pool. It was a pretty dramatic distance. I'm really very lucky I managed to hit the pool at all. Turns out pigeons seem to know something I don't.
Other delusions...
My grandmother was a robot alien from outer space and was sent here to take me away from my mom. That one was actually some mean joke she started when I was like 2, but as I got older I just rolled with it. To this day, I'm not 100% sure she died. She died a total of seven times, and I'm still not entirely convinced she died as much as the alien ship came and took her away.
I'm an alien, and maybe that's why my grandmother was sent to take me away. My mom was an "old" mom, so at 34 she found herself with a baby and my whole childhood she would jokingly say, "Who are you and where did you come from? Maybe one day I'll love you." My mother has always loved me very much, but as I got older, the two ideas merged and I have spent a considerable amount of time wondering if I aren't an alien and my grandmother was just on some kind of rescue mission, or maybe that we both crashed here and she assumed my grandmother's body and planted me in my mother... so that someone could take care of me until the mothership came back. As a result, I call my mom the mothership.
I've deluded myself with many ideas of who my dad might be, even though my mom insists it's the guy who got shared custody of me in middle school. He's such a worthless thing, though, I don't really think he could have contributed to the artistry that is myself. However, he IS bipolar... and that adds up, unfortunately. Still, he's Mexican and I'm the whitest Mexican I've ever seen... but I did do one of those 23&Me DNA tests and I've got the right genetics for it.... but still... no one so pathetic could REALLY be my father, could they?
DX~ BP1, ASPD, Narc Traits, Depersonalized AF, and former Bulimic.
Meds~ Currently Unmedicated