Bipolar & Marijuana

My new shrink says pot is a destabilizer.
But seeing as how she can't get me stable, I will probably be utilizing it again.
I don't really have a problem with mania (cuz I like it) but when I come home real depressed it takes the edge off and brings me up to a good non-feeling.
Better than crying in closets or throwing plates, anyways.

My psychiatrist says it's bad for bipolar disease (stability-wise or something along these lines).

And, it's completely illegal where I live. I'm bad at getting my hands on illegal stuff because I don't have friends etc., so I don't bother trying to get it and using it.

A few years ago, before I was medicated, I was depressed a lot and super stressed out from working long hours 7 days/week. I decided to start smoking pot, and this just gave me terrible anxiety. I'd rather be depressed. I haven't touched it since, nor do I plan to. (And this is coming from someone who smoked it for about 8 years back in the day. It just has a different effect on me now.)

I've actually always found that it has helped me whether I am in a manic state or depressive state...definitely a lifesaver for me...just a shame when you don't have the money for it hehe. I haven't smoked now for almost 2 months and I definitely miss it since I've been having more episodes since not smoking weed than when I was smoking regularly (by which I mean daily )

I think it's mainly just from person to person whether it helps or not...like alcohol for example.