Euphoric/dysphoric

i am curious to see how many people experience a euphoric or dysphoric high, or is it different from time to time? I seem to get the euphoric a fair bit (more frequently) but have had the dysphoric a few times

I only get euphoric.

I get dysphoric most of the times, despite a little euphoria. My manic episodes aren't really fun overall. They are mostly flooded by anger and violence.

Euphoria here.

mostly dysphoric. but the last week was completely euphoric... until it ramped up and ramped up and was completely uncomfortable. my thoughts, actions, energy was all just TOO MUCH to handle.

Both at different times.

I am not sure I have ever considered dysphoria a high though. When it comes on it is often in a situation where I realize I am uncomfortable and really don't want to be there. Then I get away from it and usually feel relief. Sometimes I don't and that really sucks. I hate that feeling. I am type 2 and one of those people who largely enjoys the hypomania except for a few symptoms. Dysphoria is one. The others are being a condescending jerk without realizing it, saying inappropriate things (my humor needs boundaries sometimes) and getting aroused at inappropriate times.

I enjoy euphoria except when the timing is really bad. People take it wrong when they tell me their troubles and I am having trouble suppressing a grin. That is usually from meds but sometimes it is out of the blue. The weird one is that even when I am near rock bottom, if I get out in the sun when it is warm to hot and close my eyes and withdraw within myself, I get this mental feeling like I have drawn up in the fetal position (but usually am reclined in a zero G chair) and I fantasize about living a completely different life and can get so lost in it that it is jarring to come back to reality. I am very briefly disoriented when I do this for more than a couple of minutes.

From my early teens until my late 20s (late 50s now) I did a lot of drugs and experienced both feelings a lot. I am almost hesitant to mention med related mild euphoria because it used to be a bad thing (according to society anyway) to enjoy that. I also don't confide in many people about the fantasizing. Posting here doesn't count; perceived anonymity is different.