An odd habit.

I'm not sure if I'm posting this in the correct category, but mods, feel free to move this if I did.

Ever since I was a young girl, I was suffering from symptoms of psychosis. But due to me believing that the visual and auditory hallucinations were normal, I didn't tell anyone until it was winter in 2013. In light of recent events, my doctor believes that I may have bipolar disorder and my dad, a friend, and I believe that I may have it, too. While I take antidepressants and antipsychotics, i still experience the symptoms of psychosis. I find myself staring at visual snow which I see everywhere.

I also have a strange habit as well. For some reason, I tend to repeat my thought intrusions and/or things the voices have or haven't said to me. Most of the time, they say triggering things like "kill yourself", things like that. It appears that I've fallen into this strange habit but I feel like I can't stop. Is there an explanation for this or something like that?

Our brains have faulty wiring.
We can have psychosis along with bipolar. That's just the way we are.

The good news is that you are gaining some insight in you mental health and know the difference between what is true and false. You know when the message inside you head is "Kill Yourself" that is your illness speaking, and you should not do anything rash.

You are lucky you have family that knows your problems and accepts you.
They can be a great help when you need them.

So, if your bad thoughts become overwelming, see your doctor, and be quick to tell him what you are feeling. He has medication that can help, and if need be, he can have you hospitalized. Think of it as a rest.

You are one of us. We are not alone.
take care,

Thanks for responding to this, skilsaw. And yes, I've come to realize that bipolar disorder can have psychosis in it.

Thank you for letting me know what is causing me to speak my thought intrusions and such aloud. Luckily I haven't acted on anything though sometimes I find the urge tempting at times. If they get worse, I'll try to contact a doctor.

Once again, thanks so much!