by skilsaw » Wed Aug 06, 2014 10:13 pm
I'm like you.
I can go from more depressed to less depressed to more depressed again for months.
Then comes a manic phase.
Right now I fighting the urge to go shopping. (an indicator of mania) I don't know whether I should buy another camera or another lens. I've already committed my pension cheque for August so the impulse is to pay for it out of savings.
Sometimes I am able to be a little manic or depressed and still cope with life. I was able to hang on during my career until I qualified for a regular pension. When I was in a hole, I use to tell myself, "They can't fire me. I'm sick. The most they can do is put me on a disability pension." That was reassuring. I'm glad I made it to a reguar pension though. It feels more human and successful.
Bipolar is not like traffic lights. Always Green, yellow, Red and syncronized. I can't predict how I will feel next week or next month.
Take care,
It is not always possible to make someone's discomfort go away.
Sometimes, the best thing we can do is resist the urge to fix it and instead just say, "You, too?"